Pahayag

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got this message from one of my former officemate.. i dunno bakit mabubura within 60 days yung account niya.. dude keep in touch sana..

isang pahayag..
sa mga taong naagrabyado ko..
sa mga taong nasaktan ko..
sa mga taong napagsalitaan ko ng msama..
sa mga taong nainis skin..
sa mga taong nayabangan sakin..
sa mga taong nagtanim sakin ng sama ng loob..
sorry.
paxenxa n kau.
di ko sinasadya.
sna mapatawad nyo ako.
sa mga naging kaibigan ko, mula noon hanggang ngayon, sa friendster,
sa mga lugar na napuntahan ko..
maraming salamat sa inyo..
binigyan nyo ako ng chance na maging part ng buhay nyo.
di ko kayo makakalimutan..
at sayo..
salamat.
sorry..

Appreciation

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Salamat sa inyong suporta kaya kahit papano nalagay ako sa rankings dito sa Alexa rankings, kahit pala sa jinjiruks.tk (redirecting site) at may nagpupunta pa pala..

pati na rin sa Basil Market (unofficial Trading site ng Maple Story..) sa mga foreign nationals na may tiwala sa aking pagbebenta ng mga gamit..



Least Expected

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May mga bagay talaga na nangyayari na lang bigla nang hindi mo talaga inaasahan..

- Hindi ko inaasahan na magkakaroon ako ng job (yehey may job na po ako!) sa industry na ayoko talaga puntahan para mag-apply, hindi ko nga pinapansin ang job ads nila pero eto ako andito na

- Na makakahingi ako ng tulong sa kaibigan kong hindi ko naman inaasahan na tutulong sa akin talaga, yung mga ine-expect ko iyon naman ang wala (raw?). Hindi ko lang alam kung sincere ba talaga sila sa sinabi nilang iyon. Minsan kasi dun nasusukat talaga ang pagkakaibigan - pawang kagaya sa isang kasabihan, pag mayaman ka maraming kakilala at kaibigan pero kapag mahirap ka na wala na rin sila at least kahit papaano sa panahon ng "downsides and depression" nakikilala ko nga tunay at peke sa aking mga kaibigan. Hindi ko naman nilalahat at dahil sa hindi ako natulungan ganun na, may mga factors rin akong kino-consider tungkol dun.

- Pag nakikita ko talaga ang Binan, Laguna sa mapa, hindi ko makalimutan isipin "siya", naiinis ako sa sarili ko, hindi ko man lang siya natulungan nung mga panahon na kailangan niya sa kanyang thesis pero anung magagawa ko, kalawang na ako sa programming talaga at hindi naman nag-reply sa text yung mga ni-refer ko sa kanya. Tanga-tanga ko kasi bakit ko pa siya binitiwan, dahil sa lecheng pride na iyan, handa naman siyang magbago at humingi ng 2nd chance that time. Napapaiyak na lang ako pag naaalala ko mga moment na magkasama kami at masaya. Alam kong hindi na maibabalik mga pagkakataon na iyon. Pero handa naman akong magsiluma ulit kung bibigyan niya ako ng pagkakataon. Mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya, matagal ko na siyang pinatawad sa pagkakasala niya sa akin. Alam kong hindi naman siya nagbabasa ng mga blogs pero kapag nagawi ka sana at nabasa ito. Tawagan mo naman ako at sabihan kung may pag-asa pa bang matuloy ang naudlot nating pagmamahalan. Andito ka pa rin sa puso ko, walang nagbago, kagaya pa rin ng dati.

Routine

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Jin's Typical Online Day

1) Check 5 yahoo mail accounts and 1 gmail account
2) Check Friendster / Myspace account
3) Check/Post to my blog
4) Post to Mukamo message boards
5) Check Yahoo Messenger on who's online
6) Read articles from Wikipedia
7) Browse NOYB (None of your Business) stuff

Unfamiliar

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Hindi na ako nakapag-update sa blog ko last Friday paano kasi nagpunta pa ako sa Libis at sa Riverbanks, sa totoo lang hindi ko pa kabisado yung lugar kasi bandang QC na route ako sanay at minsan lang talaga na ako dumaan, as usual perennial traffic at ang init ng panahon. Hindi ako nakapasa sa Libis kaya mga bandang hapon sa Riverbanks naman, ayun kahit papano nakapasa naman at inabot na ng gabi at pinabalik na lang ako sa ibang araw para sa Final interview at Job offer. Mahirap pala makasakay sa part na iyun kapaag rush hour talaga, napilitan tuloy akong mag-double trip sa Markina-San Mateo-Montalban, mga past 7pm na ako nakauwi, nakatulog na nga ako nang maaga sa pagod siguro. Wala pa ring tawag mula sa 1 vs 100 na show, hindi ko alam kung tatawag pa ba sila, mahirap na kasi baka sumabay naman siya sa training ko, pag nagkataon - kailangang mag-sacrifice talaga. Sana hindi umabot sa puntong iyon.

Life Plan

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a "life plan" of my Mukamo forum stoic friend named Pooch.. hope this will serve as an inspiration, motivation and a guide to all of us..

My Life Plan
My basic vision of life: Life is a skit. It is a play directed by someone wherein my course has divine providence. However, as an actor of this play, I have the freedom to act in the style I want. As an actor, I do not demand that things should happen just as I wish, but wish them to happen just as they do. Nothing can go wrong since everything is part of God’s rational plan; therefore I know all things will be well. Though, I am in control of my life in the micro-sense, I can influence it only to some extent. In this regard (my free will), I will learn to deal with the things that I can and cannot control especially my emotions and impulses. I will take responsibility for my actions and live a life of seeking serenity through self-discipline. My greatest strength is endurance in the midst of adversity. I am at my best when there are trials in my life. I see them as if they’re just ants that I can triumphantly overcome.

My core values: The values that give my life the most meaning are: God, family love, freedom, and a list of pleasures.

My most important life goals:

1. Moral goals: I will follow what Jesus said in Luke 10:27. He answered, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind; and your neighbor as yourself." Though I will not meddle in another person’s business, I will be open to help a person whenever he desperately needs help – feeling emphatically what I would feel if I am in his shoes. Moreover, I want to follow Immanuel Kant’s Categorical Imperative: Based from reason alone, I can primarily check contradictions in my moral actions.

2. Spiritual goals: I will continue to pursue/meditate God even more by reading a chapter of the Bible everyday. I know that God “fills” me because I am created as a vessel (Rom.9:21) to contain God. And as a Christian, it gives meaning for me to know how God planned everything for me. With regards to the afterlife, I will have a strong faith that there is an afterlife in the new heaven and new earth.

3. Love goals: I will treasure the love that my family gives me. I will continue to have close family ties - especially with my sisters. I will confidently enjoy life as a single person and avoid having a family on my own; that is, being single yet unavailable.

4. Friendship goals: I will continue to have a few acquaintances with whom I can share my thoughts. I will continue posting in forums, in educational and interesting threads that will broaden my intellect. Right now, I am content with the love my family gives me and so I do not look forward so much on having “best friends”.

5. Education goals: I will achieve the highest and top most education that I can. I will maximize the capacity of my brain and get a PHD. I will continue learning things that will expand my intellect and thus achieve my potential.

6. Career goals: In making money, I will be an accountant or a college professor. I will not look for the paycheck but rather the work environment that my job will give me. I want a job that can give me empowerment, have flexible days/months off even though there might be a smaller paycheck.

7. Leisure goals: I will definitely give myself a break and allow flexibility in my schedule (not too tight to make room for fun and unexpected circumstances). I would like to live a contented life, with time to reflect and meditate.

8. Health goals: I will continue to be healthy, avoiding vices such as gambling and drinking alcohol. I will visit my dentist regularly and I will sleep at least six and a half hours every night.

9. Economic goals: I will continue to be frugal and just buy things that are necessary. I will save my money for future/emergency use. However, I will not let my frugality take over my convenience. I will choose to spend conveniently rather than be too frugal and create hassle.

10. Place of residence: I will live in a busy place like the Downtown Area where most of the interesting activities happen. Everything is within reach and it won’t give me hassle in exchange for higher cost. With the time I can save because of my place of residence, I can devote myself to other things like taking courses or going to the library to read.

11. Political goals: I will let things be and accept the things that are not in my control. And as a steward of the earth, I will do my share of preserving the earth by throwing my trash (candy wrapper/bubble gum) to the right places and avoiding vandalism/graffiti.

12. Autonomy goals: I will continue to apply Epictetus’s framework for thinking about desires - always trying to sort out things which are in my control, not in my control and the things that are good for me and not good for me. I will accept things that are not in my control and never complain because I know that all things work together for good (Rom. 8:28). I will not desire things that are not good for me and I will be careful (but thankful) for things that are good for me and under my control. I know that these things are just temporary - just shadows. However, I will use my free will intelligently by influencing my fate and controlling my attitude. I can do this through self-discipline in which I can manifest the freedom given to me and I can choose my reactions and how I feel.

My Existential Attitudes: Firstly, I will nurture my optimism and faith to God - meditating not in a religious or dogmatic way but rather in a personal experience of “filling in”. Secondly, I will have strong self-discipline and a lifestyle of contentment for the way things are. Lastly, I will continue to develop an attitude of unhurried ease, comfort, and cheerfulness towards trials.

My Rules for Sane Living:

1. I will limit my computer use maximum 2 hours a day.

Using the computer is a good thing because you learn while using it. However, many times I neglect other things that I should do or deprive myself of the sleep that I need. With just 3 hours, I believe I can do everything that I need computer-wise. I will fit checking and replying to emails, posting in forums, reading daily articles and playing chess in this 3 hours a day.

2. I will read more.

Anything that will give me general information will do. There are lots of different educational materials like books, videos, films, etc. I will also read one chapter of the Bible everyday starting with the New Testament. I will also read more about Stoicism, Epictetus and Marcus Aurelius.

3. I will take care of my hygiene.

I will brush my teeth twice a day and floss once. I will also bathe daily and if the situation will not permit it, I will for sure wash my face to avoid pimples.

4. I will not buy unnecessary items.

I will save my money, preferably investing it in some mutual fund. Compulsive buying will not give me happiness but rather emptiness and discontentment. I will be contented with what I have and just focus on what will be convenient.

5. I will take control of my feelings not the other way around.

I like the philosophy of the Stoics and how they seek serenity through self-discipline. I will have autonomy by not letting myself be a slave of my emotions. I will control what I can and accept what I cannot control. With that in mind, I will start controlling my reactions. Because I know that in life negative events are inevitable, I will practice acceptance of what happens. With regard to positive events, I will thank “my director” for “giving me this part”, but will not focus on it too much. I will keep in mind that these are just shadows and only temporary. However, I will not be idle or passive. I will be active in influencing what I can control and intelligently use my free will.

6. I will pray to the Lord every night.

I will thank “my director” that my “part in the play” is not yet over. I will reflect and meditate on what happened during the day and what can I do better. Everyday is a new day and so I must forget the things which are in the past.

7. I will have close-family ties:

When you imagine some pleasure, beware that it does not carry you away, like other imaginations. Wait a while, and give yourself pause. Next remember two things: how long you will enjoy the pleasure, and also how long you will afterwards repent and revile yourself. And set on the other side the joy and self-satisfaction you will feel if you refrain. And if the moment seems come to realize it, take heed that you be not overcome by the winning sweetness and attraction of it; set in the other scale the thought how much better is the consciousness of having vanquished it.

-Epictetus.

I will be close to my sisters and to my parents. I will be open to them and through thick and thin be there for them. I will love my cousins and relatives in the Philippines. I will call them once in a while to find out how they are doing.

8. I will neither be pessimistic nor optimistic.

Rather, I will be realistic. With regards to goals, I will aim for what I can do and challenge myself. With regards to time, I will try to be punctual.

9. I will sleep before 12 midnight

Not only is that healthy, but it also makes me more active during the morning. I can then prepare breakfast and save time resting rather than doing unproductive things on the internet.
existential hiccups) one day, I can be in a total blank state, and freshly start again the next.

My Pleasures: (based from the philosophy story)

Rocks
o God – service in the church, meditation, prayer,
o Family – my parents, sisters, cousins
o Education

Pebbles
o Magic the gathering – playing and trading
o Chess – playing, reading articles, blitz games, the victories, learning from my mistakes
o Listening and collecting Tupac Shakur’s music
o My free time
o Listening to Filipino Music

Sand
o Arcade games (Street Fighter)
o Posting in forums
o Reading
o Volunteering
o An A in a course
o Doing accounting problems
o Organizing my things
o Doing the household chores
o Reading chess books
o Joining in workshops
o Feeding the Birds
o Drinking Mocha Frappochino in Starbucks
o Writing an Entry in my RSD in Mukamo
o Going out with my sisters and cousins
o Talking with my cousins on the phone.

Beer
o Eating chocolate and Spaghetti
o Watching debates
o Taking a cold shower / swimming
o Having a two-hour quiet nap in the afternoon
o Eating Pizza with Pepsi
o Drinking ice cold water
o Watching a live concert
o Drinking hot chocolate in the morning
o Preparing breakfast for everybody
o Camping with the whole family
o Strolling in Metrotown
o Eating Sushi

Remember that the insult does not come from the person who abuses you or hits you, but from your judgment that such people are insulting you. Therefore, whenever someone provokes you, be aware that it is your own opinion that provokes you. Try, therefore, in the first place not to be carried away by your impressions, for if you can gain time and delay, you will more easily control yourself.

-Epictetus

He says...

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“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”
-Mark Twain

Scandal

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Lately, a few events, moments that passed by my life has made me think about the wholeness of my life itself. Backtracked from the time when I acquired the ability to assimilate the events up to the last time I woke up feeling wretched and purposeless. As summer came to a close and the first rains from the heavens hit my numbing body, realization came upon me. To what others seems like an ordinary obstacle, to me it is a gargantuan burden... Reality hits me hard resulting into a frenzy of confusion. I'm an accident waiting to happen.
-Johnjan, Lately So much, Live.Rebirth 2.0

Certified Mob

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05.30 Maaga palang gising na ako para pumunta sa ABS-CBN. Nag text kasi sa akin yung 1 vs 100 (bagong show nila - as usual ula sa Endemol). Inaasahan ko na mahaba ang pila kahit mga 10am pa nila pinapapunta kami.

08.45 Sa tindi ng trapik talaga sa Commonwealth Avenue wala akong masabi, buti maaga pa, akala ko naman sa Audience Entrance ang application/registration - yun pala ay malapit sa ELJ Bldg - ayan nakapila na at nagpalista

10.30 Ayun inipon na lahat ng mga applicant sa Studio 10 ng ABS-CBN.. ang daming monobloc chair up to 1,500 seating capacity siguro. Naka-segragate ang lalaki sa babae. Ayun habang inaantay mapuno, yung host na si Master J ng ala stand-up comedian. Hindi lang siguro ako sanay sa mga hirit niya sa mga contestant na tinatawag niya sa harapan, bawal ang pikon sabi ko nga, pero napaka-vulgar talaga ng words na gamit niya pero nevertheless matured naman ang lahata kaya OK lang, tuwang tuwa naman ang lahat kasi lahat. Pagkatapos ng katuwaan, exam agad for about 6 mins lang ang time limit for a 30 item test, time pressure ika nga, wala lang general info., buti na lang at kahit papano nagamit ko ang stock knowledge ko. Naeepalan lang ako sa guy sa likod ko. Papansin masyado sana siya na lang ang kinausap para matameme siya. Pampam masyado, parang hindi pinapansin sa kanila. Ayun hanggang lumabas ang resulta - akala ko hindi na tatawagin ang pangalan ko - pang 19 siguro ako sa tinawag that time. Nagpa-finger at webcam pa para next time, wala nang dadalhin pa kundi sarili mo na lang.

13.45 Maraming tao sa Canteen nila kaya sinabi na lang sa amin na sa labas na lang kami mananghalian. Kahit papaano nakakilala ako ng mga new friends, pero mas close ako kay Michael kasi interesado ako sa course niya BS Chemistry (Chemical Engineer ang balak ko talaga pag nagka-pera ulit.. well isa sa mga options ko aside from Education, Meteorology..)

15.15 Nag-antay pa rin sa labas ng Studio 10 for supposedly 2nd screening, binigyan muna kami ng forms pero for personal info na iyon para malaman lang nila yung personality at character ng mga applicant. Then pagkapasa - "Congratulations - studio contestants na kayo.. pipili na lang kami in random kung sino ang magiging player - wait for our call for the taping schedule.." Gahol na kasi sila kaya hindi na nila magawa ang 2nd screening at marami pang applicant ang nagpapalista kahit hapon na. Antay na lang kami for the taping. Woohoo! Isang MOB na ako!

17.30 Nakauwi na ng haus, binalita kung anung nangyari - sana nga maging player at manalo ng 2 million toinks!

0100 Ayun mula 7pm ng gabi tetxmate na kami ni Mike (nagpalitan kami ng CP# bago naghiwalay ng landas..).. excited lang siguro kami pasi pareho lang "first time" na sumali sa ganitong show. Kwento lang sa buhay-buhay, hobbies, interest at kung anu-anu pang kalokohan. Hindi pa ako antok mamaya na siguro. Honga pala para sa kaalaman ng lahat sinusulat ko muna sa papel yung mga blog entry ko para ma-edit ko muna siya kahit papano.. Sige iyon lamang po ang laman ng aking kwento. Good luck na lang sa akin at Pray for Me na maging studio player, pwede na ring MOB kasi paghahatian namin pag natalo ang Player.. wahaha!

He says..

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one of the Erap jokes na uso nung President pa sya..

REPORTER: Hon. Pres. Joseph Estrada, What do you think about these countries?
ERAP: What countries
Reporter: Iran, Iraq And Egypt
ERAP: Oh, Iran is the past tense of I am running, Iraq is the only kind of things you find in the Japanese rock garden. Egypt naman is the pambansang vehicle of the Philippines, which waits for passengers anywhere in the streets!

Ymir

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Nung newbie palang ako sa blogging world, wala talaga akong idea kung anu ang ilalagay ko, natatakot ako sa mga reaksyon na sasabihin ng mga visitors pag nakagawa na ako ng blog entry so iniisip ko talaga anu ba ang dapat ilagay sa mga unang posts ko. Ilang araw pa bago may nakapag reply sa entry ko. Pinakauna si Ymir - my first blog friend, ayun mainit naman ang pagtanggap sa akin nila. Lalo na sya, maraming tinuro siya sa akin sa pagaayos ng blog ko. Isa na rito yung paglalagay ng icon sa tabi ng browser part (nakalimutan ko na ang tawag dito - Ymir turuan mo ako ulit). Actually hindi pa kami nagkikita nyan in person (along with Thinking Jeff - yung 2nd na nag comment sa blog ko) - balak ko sana kaming tatlo muna since matagal na kaming magkakakilala sa blog. Ang linis at maayos ang blog nitong kaibigan ko, kasama na rina ng peborit kong Pix-E-Log section niya (collection ng mga photo shots niya!). Sa totoo lang naiinggit talaga ako kay Ymir. Ang galing niyang kumuha ng mga shots, perfect angle, time at subject. Sana nga mahawaan mo ako ng iyong talento. Kita-kita na lang tayo pare! Kaw manlibre.. wahaha!

Senti

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Jin,

Kumusta na? Ilang taon na ang lumipas wala pa ring nangyayari sa buhay mo. Anu ba talaga ang gusto mo sa buhay? Anu bang mga goals at priority mo sa buhay? Ikaw kasi pinagsasabay mo ang lahat kaya't nahihirapan ka ngayon. Hinay-hinay lang, kaya ka napapanot niyan kakaisip sa mga problemang nasa isip mo lang at hindi pa dumadating. Sa loob ng 25 taon, saksi ako sa paglaki at pagbabago mo, mga karanasang masaya at malungkot. Alam ko rin ang mga tinatago mong hinanakit sa buhay, mga bagay na hindi mo masabi.. dahil sa natatakot ka sa reaksyon ng iba o sa maaring mangyari. Kung patuloy kang mamumuhay sa nakaraan, talagang hindi ka makakausad niyan. Lahat naman tayo may takot o pagdadalawang-isip sa pagbabago pero wala naman tayong magagawa doon, kailangan nating makibagay o sumunod kundi walang mangyayari sa atin.

Kaya mo yan! Wala namang ibibigay sa iyo na hindi mo malalampasan. Trust yourself! Alam kong nagse-senti ka na naman pag ganitong tag-ulan, malayo na naman ang tingin. Nagpapantasya sa isang mundong payapa at simple lang, kung saan yung mga ninanais mo sa buhay at matutupad, pero alam mo namang kathang-isip lang iyan at hindi mangyayari, pero alam ko iyon naman ang nagbibigay inspirasyon sa iyo para magpatuloy sa buhay. Kung alam lang nila, may mga gabing napapaiyak ka na lang sa mga kadahilanang ayaw mo nang ipahatid sa iba. Ikaw rin naman ang nahihirapan niyan sa ginagawa mo. Mahahanap mo rin ang nakalaas para sa iyo. Kusa na lang darating sa iyo at huwag mo nang hanapin. Alam kong malakas ka at hindi padadaig sa ibang humahamak sa iyo. Pagsubok lang iyan, tinitiyak ko sa mga darating na araw, makikita ko na rin ang tunay mong ngiti at kaligayahan na inaasam-asam mo.

Marshall

Nokia Fast Facts

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1) The ringtone "Nokia tune" is actually based on a 19th century guitar work named "Gran Vals" by Spanish musician Francisco Tárrega. The Nokia Tune was originally named "Grande Valse" on Nokia phones but was changed to "Nokia Tune" around 1998 when it became so well known that people referred to it as the "Nokia Tune."

2) The world's first commercial GSM call was made in 1991 in Helsinki over a Nokia-supplied network, by Prime Minister of Finland Harri Holkeri, using a Nokia phone.

3) Nokia is currently the world's largest digital camera manufacturer, as the sales of its camera-equipped mobile phones have exceeded those of any conventional camera manufacturer.

4) The "Special" tone available to users of Nokia phones when receiving SMS (text messages) is actually Morse code for "SMS". Similarly, the "Ascending" SMS tone is Morse code for "Connecting People," Nokia's slogan. The "Standard" SMS tone is Morse code for "M" (Message).

5) The Nokia corporate font (typeface) is the AgfaMonotype Nokia Sans font, originally designed by Eric Spiekermann. Its mobile phone User's Guides Nokia mostly used the Agfa Rotis Sans font.

6) In Asia, the digit 4 never appears in any Nokia handset model number, because 4 is considered unlucky in many parts of Southeast/East Asia .

7) Nokia was listed as the 20th most admirable company worldwide in Fortune's list of 2006 (1st in network communications, 4th non-US company).

8. Unlike other modern day handsets, Nokia phones do not automatically start the call timer when the call is connected, but start it when the call is initiated. (Except for Series 60 based handsets like the Nokia 6600)

9) Nokia is sometimes called aikon (Nokia backwards) by non-Nokia mobile phone users and by mobile software developers, because "aikon" is used in various SDK software packages, including Nokia's own Symbian S60 SDK.

10) The name of the town of Nokia originated from the river which flowed through the town. The river itself, Nokianvirta, was named after the old Finnish word originally meaning sable, later pine marten. A species of this small, black-furred predatory animal was once found in the region, but it is now extinct.

Peep

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Nakakamiss talaga yung mga pangboboso ko nung nasa dating haus pa kami.. Ang lamig-lamig pa naman ng panahon.. Sa totoo lang mas nakaka-el pa talaga iyon kaysa actual sex talaga.. wala lang opinion ko lang! Ayoko na mag-kwento kasi masisira ang wholesome image ko.. wahaha!

Hate

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Waltz
Hale

I hate the way you are
So mean to me by far
The most frigid girl
That i have ever known

You speak loudly, but
When i’m not around
You’ll be just like them
So shallow and obnoxious

Please…
That’s enough (2x)
Please…

I’ve said this a million times before
And i’m sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

You said that you’d call
But time you’ll be at home
But you never did
You said you did mean to

Now i’m outraged
As if we’re engaged
You made me realize
I’m just your alibi

Please…
That’s enough (2x)
Please…

I’ve said this a million times before
And i’m sick
But all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

And all that i need
And all that i bleed
And all that i care for
Is you

I hate you..

Interest

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Hayy, wala pa ring bagong balita ngayong weekends. Maski ata hindi ako mag-text ng buong buwan walang may pakialam sa akin. Pero OK lang ganun talaga buhay. I'm still waiting for the right job and for the right person na darating sa buhay. Sa ngayon hindi ko pa talaga iniisip ang personal interest ko, family matters muna bago ang sarili na lagi ko namang ginagawa dati pa. Hindi na nga ako nakaipon para sa sarili ko mula nang magsimula akong mag-work talaga. Minsan lang ako mamili ng mga damit ko ang pa ata 2 taon na (poor lang po.. made in Tutuban!), hindi na rin ako nakakapag-mall ngayon at gala-gala kagaya dati. Na miss ko tuloy nung High School pag may Foundation Day sa Roosevelt, attendance lang tapos punta na agad sa Sta. Lucia Mall (sikat sa amin noong 90s) ayun gala at nood, naaalala ko pa nga yung Ghostfighter the movie ang pinanood namin at 25 pesos palang ang Jolly Spaghetti that time. Hehe! Pasensya na at senti mode lang. Ewan ko ba at napapadalas mga ganito.. Baka nasa andropause period na ako. Wahaha!

Siyanga pala nakatanggap ako ng text message from my colleague Beth.. gusto ko lang i-share..
I asked God, "How do I get the best out of life?" God answered: "face your past without regret, handle your present with confidence, prepare for the future without fear." Then He added, "Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs. Life is wonderful, if you know how to live."

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When you love, never stick only to what your heart feels, remember that sometimes, using your brain is a necessity. Next, never use your eyes to cry for the person who hurt you.. Instead, use it to search for the right one.. Lastly, don't be scared breaking up.. Keeping a relationship without love is just a waste of time. Take note, love the one who will fight for you and bravely face each and every consequences. Someone whom you can call "Mine" rather than "Ideal".

She Says..

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"The problem with the Americans is that they are overpaid, oversexed, and over here."
-Senator Miriam Defensor-Santiago

Rainy Metropolis

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Kahapon kahit kalakasan ng ulan at may bagyo ay nagtungo pa rin ako sa Alabang Metropolis (ang mahal ng pamasahe talaga - kasi North-South talaga ang layo namin mga Php150+ papunta-pabalik na iyon) para lang mag-apply sa isang recruitment hub sa lugar na iyon. I thought 7am nagbubukas yung mall kasi sabi ng kapatid ko iyon pala ay 10am rin, buti na lang at mga 9.45am na ako nakarating dahil sa perennial traffic problems na lang palagi. Pagdating ko sa area, sasabihin sa akin mga 1.30pm pa raw sila tatanggap ng applicants. Naasar lang ako kasi ano naman ang gagawin ko sa mall na iyon na mag-isa lang, mukha lang akong tanga doon na palakad-lakad. Naaawa lang talaga ako sa kalagayan ng mall ngayon, butas ang bubong at hindi napapaayos ata, puro timba na pang-salo ng tubig-ulan ang makikita mo sa paligid. Poor maintenance talaga at napabayaan na iyong lugar. Tanghaling tapat may mga kolboy sa paligid. Lilingap-lingap sa paligid, nakikita ko sila nakikipag-transact sa customer. First kong pumunta rito pero ito na agad ang bumulaga sa akin. Siguro iintindihin ko na lang kasi "in progress" pa naman ang South area ng Metro Manila. Nung 1.30pm na ayon nakapag-apply na ako, nag-exam; akala ko nga hindi na ako nakapasa kasi hindi ako tinawag; buti na lang at hindi pa ako umalis that time. Tinawag ako ng kasabay ko na nabanggit raw ang pangalan ko, ayun Ok naman sa exam at interview. Antay na lang sa tawag, mga 6.15pm na ako nakalabas ng mall (ang tagal kasi ng interview at exam). Bumili pa akong payong kasi sobrang lakas ng ulan talaga (nasira pa anbg lumang payong na dala ko!). Nag-text sa akin kapatid ko sabi niya mag-MRT na raw ako kasi hindi gumagalaw ang mga sasakyan sa EDSA kasi baha masyado. Nakauwi na nga ako ng 9.30pm. Sobrang wasted at pagod na pagod kaya pagkapahinga at ligo, natulog na agad ako.

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Pasensiya na sa mga nag-tetx sa akin at hindi na ako nakapag-reply sa inyo. Dan thanks ulit, your so nice talaga! Salamat sa mga nagbabasa at komento sa aking humble blog at pinagtyatyagaan niyong basahin! Thanks again for the support sa mga fans ko worldwide.. wahaha!

Undecided

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Ang dami kong iniisip ngayon, nag-iisip talaga ako kung sasagutin ko na ba itong nagpaparamdam sa akin. Mabait siya, maaalahanin at malambing pero ewan ko, sa ngayon ayoko pa talaga ng responsibility talaga ngauon at hindi pa sigurado kung mahal ko ba siya o nagpapadala lang ako sa aking emosyon. Minsan lang kasi dumating ang ganitong pagkakataon, ewan ko talaga! Bakit ba kailangan kong danasin ang ganito.. I'm having doubts even on myself right now! Kailangan ko talaga ng advice ngayon. Ayoko siyang mawala pero hindi pa ako sa handa sa responsiblity. Hayaan ko na lang siguro ma-develop kung pupunta ba sa pagmamahal ito o pipigilan ko na agad bago pa makarating sa ganung antas..

Kahapon walang tigil ang ulan talaga sa Ortigas nakakasar nabasa na naman ako kasi mahirap sumakay talaga pag ganung kalakasan ng ulan, maarte ako ayoko ng aircon mas OK sa akin ung ordinary lang.. kaya ayun nilakad ko papuntang Megamall mula sa Galleria.. at patakbo-takbo talaga hanggang mabasa ung clear folder at polo ko.. buti na lang eh hindi aklo nilagnat that time pero paguwi mo naman eh brownout (mula 9am pa raw iyon!) ayun buti na lang at by 8pm eh nagkailaw na.. basang basa pa naman ako that time nung nagkailaw eh nagpahinga na ako.. nakakaasar lang at hindi ko napanood ang ALIAS sa ch.23 napasarap ang tulog dahil sa pagod. Ayun bukas may mission na naman ako.. hanggang sa muli!

Famous Lines

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tawa mode muna tayo.. puro gloomy na lang entries pang balanse..

"Bakit ba pati ako, binibigyan nyo ng malisya? Ano ba ang kasalanan ko?!"
- Talong

"Hindi lahat ng malakas, super hero!"
- Putok

"Hey! Andito ako sa Ospital ngayon!"
- Nurse

"Ako lang ang makakapagpadugo ng ilong ni Manny Pacquiao!"
- English

"Hindi totoong anak ko si Bakekang! At lalong hindi ko kapatid si Mike Enriquez! Kaya pwede ba, tigilan na ang tsismis na yan!"
- Shrek

"Paano tayo makakabuo kung hindi ako papatong sa iyo?"
- Lego

"Halika, bigyan mo pa ako ng init. Kailangan kong pumutok para ako'y iyong matikman at ika'y masarapan. Ayan na! Puputok na! Humanda ka!"
- Popcorn

"Kahit papaano, gusto ko din ng exposure!"
- Singit

"Hindi ko hinahangad na ipagmalaki mo na ako'y sa iyo. Ayoko lang naman na sa harap ng maraming tao, ganun mo na lang ako itanggi!"
- Utot

"Hindi lahat ng hinog ay matamis!"
- Pigsa

"Kapag ang katawan mo'y nag-iinit, lagi na lang ako ang hinahanap mo. Maya't maya mo akong ginagamit at pinapagod. Hindi ka na naawa!"
- Aircon

"Pagod na akong humawak ng balls mo! Pagod narin ako sa pagbihis-hubad mo sa akin. Malapit na naman ulit! Ayoko na!!!"
- Christmas Tree.

"I ikspik that it will be a long payt, a good payt, But you know, I didn't ikspik. Tinks por da God, you know, and tinks por ol da pelepeno pipo!"
- Manny Pacquiao.

"Nakakapagod rin palang magmahal. Kahit gaano mo kamahal ang isang tao, darating din ang araw na isusuko mo sya. Pero mas nakakapagod kapag 4 months ang practice at training mo tapos, 3rd round lang, knockout ka na!"
- Erik Morales

"You never even thanks me for making you happy, then yo throw me away just like that. I hate you for using me, for making my life full of shit!"
- Tissue

"Hindi llahat ng kulot, salot!"
- Golddilocks

"Hindi lahat ng bubuyog, kulay itim!"
- Jollibee

"Alam kong sa tingin mo, masaya ako! Pero bakit kayo ganyan?! Sa tuwing wala na kayong
masabi, ako na lang ang ginagamit nyo! Pagod na pagod ako sa pagngiti!"
- Smiley

"You can cry all you want, you could always blame me. You said, it wan't fair, that you just
want life to be better. But remember, it's all your fault! You stabbed me with a knife!"
- Sibuyas

"You never know what you have till you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back!"
- Snatcher

"Isubo mo ang kahabaan ko. Dilaan. Sipsipin. Paglaruan sa bibig mo. Para lumabas ang katas
ko na kinasabikan mo. Nag mamahal,"
- Ice Candy

"The world is so big, di ba? Imagine?! 7billion people, 7 continents, over a hundred
countries, pero paano tayo nagkakilala? That is what you call.... "
- Kamalasan

"Bakit ayaw nyo pa rin sa akin kahit sosyal at maganda ako? Dahil ba mas sweet ang iba?".
- Fruitcake

"Panakip butas mo lang pala ako!".
- Panty

"Pinapaikot mo lang ako! Nagsasawa na ako. Mabuti pang patayin mo na lang ako".
- Electric fan

"Hindi lahat na walang salawal ay bastos !"
- winnie d' pooh

"Alam mo ba wala akong ibang hinangad kundi ang mapalapit sa iyo. Pero patuloy ang pag-iwas mo".
-ipis

"Hala! sige magpakasasa ka! Alam ko namang katawan ko lang ang habol mo."
-hipon

"Ayoko na! Pag nagmamahal ako, lagi na lang maraming tao ang nagagalit! Wala ba akong
karapatang magmahal?!"
-Gasolina

"Hindi lahat ng berde ay masustansya."
-plema

"Sawang-sawa na ako, palagi na lang akong pinagpapasa-pasahan, pagod na pagod na ako."
-Bola

"You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it
back"
-Snatcher

"Ginawa ko naman lahat para sumaya ka, mahirap ka ba talagang makontento sa isa? Bakit
palipat-lipat ka?
-TV

"Hindi lahat ng maasim may vitamin C"
-kili kili

"Pilitin mo man na alisin ako sa buhay mo, babalik at babalik ako!
-Libag

"Anung kasalanan ko sa iyo, iniwan mo na lang akong duguan..."
-Sanitary Napkin

"Hwag mo na akong bilugin.."
-kulangot

"Bwisit na buhay ito! Araw-araw na lang, itlog! Umaga, tanghali, gabi, itlog! Itlog! Itlog!

Lagi na lang itlog!"
-Brief

"Sige, kalimutan mo ako para malaman ng iba ang baho mo!
-deodorant

Broken Past

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Paano ko nakilala si P? Coincidence nga lang siguro sa isang yahoo groups nagkakilala kami, wala lang parang trip lang that time when i posted a message that I'm looking for a textmate (hindi naman ako desperado, katuwaan lang talaga at walang magawa!), then suddenly P texted me and uso pa Smart unlimited that time (unlike now na maaasar ka lang mag-register), ayan nagkakilanlan; as days passed, hanggang we decided na magkita na (opo, EB!). Usapan namin eh sa SM Manila at around 11 am ata nun. May class pa kasi siya ng umaga (BSIT - FEU East Asia). Ayon nag-antay ako ng 30 mins kasi traffic talaga. Hanggang nag-text siya na andun na siya. Sa matagal naming pagte-text eh hindi pa kami nagkakapalitan ng pics talaga, kaya wala kaming idea anu itsura niya at sika sa akin. Ayun nagkita na kami, wala lang. At that time, nahiya talaga ako kasi ang "cute" niya kasi (personal opinion!).

Wala lang alam mo na sa lahat ng mga naka-EB ko nung college up to that time siya lang ang cute talaga. wahaha! Ang sama ko talaga. Naglakad-lakad muna kamo at kumain sandali. Ilang beses rin akong nakatingin sa kanya nang matagal at sinasabi ko sa sarili ko "ang swerte ko naman.. Siya nba talaga ang hinahanap ko?!" Hanggang the rest is history!, hindi naman talaga kami nagtagal mga ilang weeks lang talaga. Kasi nung hiningi ko yung email at friendster account niya, nahuli kong may iba pala siyang ka-EB (ewan ko kung more than that..) habang kami that time. Ayun medyo naasar lang ako kasi bakit niya ako ginaganun. Naging faithful naman ako sa kanya sa mga panahon na iyon. Ganun talaga siguro ang buhay, siguro hindi talaga kami sa isat-isa. Umamin naman siya ng kasalanan niya at bigyan niya raw ako ng ilang araw tapos saka siya haharap ulit sa akinupang magpaliwanag.

Siguro talagang hindi kami para sa isa't-isa.. pareho pa kaming "immature" masyado at hindi pa sure sa isa't-isa. Ayun kaya kahit masakit man sa akin, pinakawalan ko na siya. Siguro nasasakal na siya masyado sa akin kaya ganun. Mas mabuti na siguro iyon para sa aming dalawa. Binura ko na iyong number niya sa cellphone ko at kinalimutan na siya. Mabuti na lang at hindi ko binigay ang lahat at nagtira ako sa sarili ko kaya ilang araw lang eh medyo ok na ako ulit. Ayun hanggang last June, nagkausap ulit kami, kinumusta ko lang siya.. nagpalitan ng number, nagkapatawaran.. Ang korni noh! Ganun siguro lang talaga iyon. Pareho pa rin kaming single pero napagusapan namin na unahin muna ang career kaysa relation. Sabi naman niya bukas pa rin naman ang pinto at darating rin ang panahon. Kung kami talaga, eh di kami. Simple lang! Pero hanggang ngayon mahal ko pa rin siya. Minahal at tinanggap niya kasi ako bilang ako. Ayoko munang tuldukan ang relasyon namin ito, kaya tatapusin ko siya ng tuldukuwit (;)

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"I'm already in my thoughts, but I've never had peace of mind in this country. Everyday, when I step out of the house to go to work, I fear that I might be mugged or shot. Life is very cheap here. They kill you for your cellphone or wallet. And then when I transact business with this or that government agency, I have to grease the hands of the people who are supposed to serve me. The criminal and the corrupt - they are everywhere, we all know they are dominant in the last elections."
-author's relative in disgust with the turns of events in the country, Cirilo Bautista, Breaking Signs, Philippine Panorama

Pakisabi na lang..

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ay naku.. narinig ko na naman ang song na ito.. kaya nagpapaka-senti na naman ako.. dedicated to the 4 initials..

Pakisabi na Lang
The Company

Nais kong malaman niya nagmamahal ako
'Yan lang ang nag-iisang pangarap ko
Gusto ko mang sabihin 'di ko kayang simulan
'Pag nagkita kayo pakisabi na lang

Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya
'Di na baleng my mahal siyang iba
(Pakisabi na lang)
Pakisabi huwag siyang mag-alala
'Di ako umaasa
Alam kong ito'y malabo
'Di ko na mababago
('Di mababago)
Ganoon pa man pakisabi na lang

Sana ay malaman niya masaya na rin ako
Kahit na nasasaktan ang puso ko
Wala na 'kong maisip na mas
Madali pang paraan
'Pag nagkita kayo pakisabi na lang

Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya
'Di na baleng my mahal siyang iba
(Pakisabi na lang)
Pakisabi huwag siyang mag-alala
'Di ako umaasa
Alam kong ito'y malabo
'Di ko na mababago
('Di mababago)
Ganoon pa man pakisabi na lang

Pakisabi na lang umiibig ako
Lagi siyang naririto sa puso ko
(Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya)
P'wede ba...
(Mahal ko siya)

Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya
'Di na baleng my mahal siyang iba
(Pakisabi na lang)
Pakisabi huwag siyang mag-alala
'Di ako umaasa
Alam kong ito'y malabo
'Di ko na mababago
('Di mababago)
Ganoon pa man pakisabi na lang
Pakisabi na lang na mahal ko siya
'Di na baleng my mahal siyang iba
(Pakisabi na lang)
Pakisabi huwag siyang mag-alala
'Di ako umaasa
Alam kong ito'y malabo
'Di ko na mababago
('Di mababago)
Ganoon pa man pakisabi na lang

Ganoon pa man pakisabi na lang


Another thing.. aww ang sweet-sweet naman nila DK at nung Bhebhe nya.. just want to quote this from his blog..

"My Bebhe asked me "So care to tell me what you have decided on?" I replied "I know for a fact, that this year, year 2006, you are the best thing that happened to me..." My Bebhe turned away before I was able to finish my speech. I approached him and saw him crying. I hugged him and kissed him ever so gently. "I don't need any plans for next year. Because as long as you are with me, I know I can get through everything." And with that, the tears my Bebhe was trying to fight flowed freely."
-Dark Knight, "I Made my Bhebhe Cry!, The Love Room