Malapit nang magtapos ang taon, maraming pangyayari ang naganap nitong taon na ito. Maraming masasaya lalo na mga galaan at iba pang mga events, marami ring malungkot kagaya ng breakups at stress sa work na magsisilbing aral na naman sa atin at maging reason para maging matatag at harapin ang bagong hamon ng Bagong Taon. Sana matuto na sa mga nakaraang mga pagkakamali. Tahakin ang landas na inaakala mong tama at wag mag-iwan ng regrets. Tinahanak natin yan at tayo rin ang gagawa para labasan ito at pagtagumpayan. Salamat sa lahat ng aking mga kaibigan at kaaway at sa family that shaped me on what I am today. Sana'y maging maliwanag ang hinaharap natin sa taong 2012. Bagong buhay. Bagong simula. Bagong Pag-asa!
In the name of [Love]
"I loved and lost. I tried loving someone else. But life is full of surprises. Who could have guessed that one day, our paths would cross again, xxx. And its way better this time. No more bitterness, no more anger. Just pure friendship. In time, people really move on and forgiveness becomes easy. When we let go of the pain, it leaves nothing in our hearts but love. It may not be romantic but this is way better than what we almost had. And to you xxxx, I wish you luck as you seek for greener pasture abroad. I hope we could have shared more moments together. Pero wala eh, hanggang dun lang yata talaga."
-The End of the Road, Kenchus' Rushed Performance
There are times..
There are just times when people feel too down to even help their own self, but there always comes a reason for people to look up once again and see the things they almost missed..
-Build Number One: Floor (Part Eighteen), Knox' One Midnight Wolf
I Believe
Believe in yourself. Not in you who believe in me. Not in me who believe in you. You should believe... you should believe in yourself!
Current
-done with Lord of the Rings trilogy, thanks sir Jemar for the Dark Elf Trilogy - Legend of Drizzt Books
-hindi ko matapos tapos ang ibang anime pero effort ko itong Gurren Lagann
-movies, currently downloading Paranormal Activity series and Pirates of the Caribbean
-big Walking Dead fan kaya downloading the season 2 up to episode 7 since sa February pa ang next episode
-hindi ko matapos tapos ang ibang anime pero effort ko itong Gurren Lagann
-movies, currently downloading Paranormal Activity series and Pirates of the Caribbean
-big Walking Dead fan kaya downloading the season 2 up to episode 7 since sa February pa ang next episode
Kuntento
"Nalulungkot ka kasi hindi napasaiyo ang gusto mo, Pero mas Blessed ka kasi kahit paano ay meron ka, Tumingin ka sa paligid mo, pansinin mo ang mga batang lansangan, Isang tinapay lamang ay masaya na sila.
Mas swerte ka pa rin!"
-It's your Choice, Mark's Kol me Empi
Mas swerte ka pa rin!"
-It's your Choice, Mark's Kol me Empi
Tseklis
-New shoes.. tsek
-Register at Bullrun.. tsek pero disappointed dahil 16k dapat
-Notebook.. tsek at dito lang naubos ang 13th month
-Fishing.. tsek, will do hunting and biking next year
-Bonding with tropa.. tsek, satisfied at bitin
-Read new book.. tsek, thanks sir Jemar for the Legend of Drizzt
-Exchange gift sa office.. tsek, kanina lang
on the way..
College reunion, miss you guys!
Hiking/trekking equipment, wish ko lang me pera pako
Sagada Trip, no matter what happens, kelangan matuloy ito
Great Canadian/NZ dream, yearlong project ng mga officemates
asa..
Lovelife
Peace of Mind
Milyonaryo
-Register at Bullrun.. tsek pero disappointed dahil 16k dapat
-Notebook.. tsek at dito lang naubos ang 13th month
-Fishing.. tsek, will do hunting and biking next year
-Bonding with tropa.. tsek, satisfied at bitin
-Read new book.. tsek, thanks sir Jemar for the Legend of Drizzt
-Exchange gift sa office.. tsek, kanina lang
on the way..
College reunion, miss you guys!
Hiking/trekking equipment, wish ko lang me pera pako
Sagada Trip, no matter what happens, kelangan matuloy ito
Great Canadian/NZ dream, yearlong project ng mga officemates
asa..
Lovelife
Peace of Mind
Milyonaryo
Lamig-lamig..
Panay ang ulan nitong nakaraang mga araw, lalo lang nababagot sa bahay at alam sa amin na gala talaga ako at hindi pirmi sa pa rest day, hayz, anu ba itong nararamdaman ko, blame it again to the weather, ilang araw, buwan at taon na ang lumilipas na single parin, ang lamig lamig ng panahon, nakakalungkot at mag-isa nalang palagi sa pagmumuni-muni. Isang tao lang ang nasa isip ko na gusto kong makasama hanggang sa huling araw ng aking buhay pero hindi pwede maging kami at hindi talaga magiging kami kaya heto inaalo nalang sarili ko sa isang tagong mundo na tinatawag na pantasya, na sa mundong ito pwede maging kami at habambuhay na masaya.
Pero sa pagbalik ng ulirat, balik na naman sa realidad, na mag-isa kalang sa buhay, walang katuwang o masasabihan ng nasasaloob, nakakalungkot pero wala akong magawa. Ayokong i-risk ang pagkakaibigan namin at mauwi sa wala ang lahat. Masaya na ako na ganito, siguro panahon nalang ang makapagsasabi at huhusga sa akin. Sana matutunan ko na rin kung paano maging masaya..
Pero sa pagbalik ng ulirat, balik na naman sa realidad, na mag-isa kalang sa buhay, walang katuwang o masasabihan ng nasasaloob, nakakalungkot pero wala akong magawa. Ayokong i-risk ang pagkakaibigan namin at mauwi sa wala ang lahat. Masaya na ako na ganito, siguro panahon nalang ang makapagsasabi at huhusga sa akin. Sana matutunan ko na rin kung paano maging masaya..
Time
"..you say that time is the greatest thief — it takes away money, steals hope, corrupts ideologies. time steals time, washes over emotions, and builds uncertainty; it takes the same time to shatter and forget them all. but i know one thing that doesn't require time: to make no sense.."
-Time after time,Through the sadness
-Time after time,Through the sadness
Kopya
Hindi muna nakapag jogging dahil maga pa ang binti dahil sa sunod-sunod na pagtakbo. Naka-text si Cyril at napag-usapan na punta ako sa kanila para kumopya ng movie/anime kesa mag-antay pa ako ng matagal sa Torrents.
Habang siya eh naglalaro ng Persona 4, busy naman akong kopya ng 2 anime sa kanya. Hindi ako makapili sa dami ng movies kaya iyon nalang muna. Thanks sa hospitality at pinakain pa nila ako ng Sinigang na baboy at cassave cave special for dessert. Waaa!
Sayang nga lang at talagang alanganin si Cyril para sa get together at Midweek ang rest day niya at ubos na rin ang leave niya kaya malamang eh next year pa kami magkikita-kita nito nang kumpleto. Thanks ulit Cyril at balik nalang ako para kumopya ulit ng mga movies. Bow!
Habang siya eh naglalaro ng Persona 4, busy naman akong kopya ng 2 anime sa kanya. Hindi ako makapili sa dami ng movies kaya iyon nalang muna. Thanks sa hospitality at pinakain pa nila ako ng Sinigang na baboy at cassave cave special for dessert. Waaa!
Sayang nga lang at talagang alanganin si Cyril para sa get together at Midweek ang rest day niya at ubos na rin ang leave niya kaya malamang eh next year pa kami magkikita-kita nito nang kumpleto. Thanks ulit Cyril at balik nalang ako para kumopya ulit ng mga movies. Bow!
Register
11am. Maambon-ambon hanggang sa umulan. Nagkita kami nina Rene at Thomas. Usap-usap sa mga balita hanggang sa makarating sa SM North para mag register sa PSE Bull Run 2012. Hoping na sana eh may slots pa for 16k. Sad to say wala na talaga at na kuntento nalang kami sa 10k, *sad*.
Gala muna saglit at tingin-tingin bago magpunta sa WalterMart sa Munoz around 2pm. Tingin ng mga shoes sa SportsWarehouse na recommended ng former supervisor ko. Mura nga talaga siya pero sad at wala sa size ko mga available sa kanila. Nalaman ko nga rin pala na Middle/Flat ang paa ko salamat dun sa Adidas store.
Kumain muna ng lunch bago umalis at napagpasyahang mag MRT dahil balak ni Thomas dumaan sa Marikina via Cubao at may titingnan daw siya. Pero napagpasyahan na bukas nalang daw at alanganin. Kaya bumalik kami sa sale ng mga gears sa Trinoma Activity Center, tingin-tingin lang. Umakyat sa Olympic World at nakabili rin ng running shoes. Sana nga lang Black/Red combination kaso wala talaga at nakuntento ulit sa White/Neon Green combi para reflector narin pag gabi.
Gabi na kami nakauwi sa amin. Salamat sa bonding Rene at Thomas. Excited na sa Bull Run!
Gala muna saglit at tingin-tingin bago magpunta sa WalterMart sa Munoz around 2pm. Tingin ng mga shoes sa SportsWarehouse na recommended ng former supervisor ko. Mura nga talaga siya pero sad at wala sa size ko mga available sa kanila. Nalaman ko nga rin pala na Middle/Flat ang paa ko salamat dun sa Adidas store.
Kumain muna ng lunch bago umalis at napagpasyahang mag MRT dahil balak ni Thomas dumaan sa Marikina via Cubao at may titingnan daw siya. Pero napagpasyahan na bukas nalang daw at alanganin. Kaya bumalik kami sa sale ng mga gears sa Trinoma Activity Center, tingin-tingin lang. Umakyat sa Olympic World at nakabili rin ng running shoes. Sana nga lang Black/Red combination kaso wala talaga at nakuntento ulit sa White/Neon Green combi para reflector narin pag gabi.
Gabi na kami nakauwi sa amin. Salamat sa bonding Rene at Thomas. Excited na sa Bull Run!
Eco
gumala kasama si Angelo sa La Mesa EcoPark, late notice dahil akala ko eh hindi kami matutuloy kaya naman after ng jogging eh set ulit namin yung time para magkita, mga past 10am na kami nakarating at mainit na talaga, nakita pa namin dun ang host ng Landmarks sa Net 25, sayang nga lang at hindi kami nakapag autograph. mga bandang alas-2 ng hapon na kami nakalabas sa Park at sayang nga at hindi natuloy sa fishing dahil wala ang attendant..
Aktibidad
Palapit na nang palapit ang katapusan ng taon. Maraming mga events at reunions na nangyayari. Sobrang dami hindi mo alam kung ano ang prioritize mo.
Sad nga lang at medyo cancel muna ang Vigan trip pero syempre ok lang at marami pa namang pagkakataon at pag ok na ang mga kasama ko tutuloy namin ito sa ibang buwan. Iyun nga lang, kelangan makapag isip ng mga gagawin lalo na't meron akong isang linggo na nasa bahay lang at kelangan maging produktibo at kapaki-pakinabang sa akin.
Iniisip kong umakyat sa Baguio at makapag ukay-ukay. Pwede rin naman na malapit lang sa amin sa Avilon Zoo at pagusapan ang get together ng PS boys. O kaya sa EcoPark naman kasama si Angelo para samahan siya sa kanyang libangan na pangingisda.
Mas masarap sana kung makakapag out of town ako. Para makapag isip or unwind. Mahaba pa naman ang panahon at may oras pang makapag-isip kung san ok pumunta nang hindi masyado magastos at kelangan na magtipid.
Ginagawa ko ito para malibang at maging diversion narin para sa nangungulila kong puso na sana dumating na sa susunod na taon ang right person for me. *sigh*
Sad nga lang at medyo cancel muna ang Vigan trip pero syempre ok lang at marami pa namang pagkakataon at pag ok na ang mga kasama ko tutuloy namin ito sa ibang buwan. Iyun nga lang, kelangan makapag isip ng mga gagawin lalo na't meron akong isang linggo na nasa bahay lang at kelangan maging produktibo at kapaki-pakinabang sa akin.
Iniisip kong umakyat sa Baguio at makapag ukay-ukay. Pwede rin naman na malapit lang sa amin sa Avilon Zoo at pagusapan ang get together ng PS boys. O kaya sa EcoPark naman kasama si Angelo para samahan siya sa kanyang libangan na pangingisda.
Mas masarap sana kung makakapag out of town ako. Para makapag isip or unwind. Mahaba pa naman ang panahon at may oras pang makapag-isip kung san ok pumunta nang hindi masyado magastos at kelangan na magtipid.
Ginagawa ko ito para malibang at maging diversion narin para sa nangungulila kong puso na sana dumating na sa susunod na taon ang right person for me. *sigh*
Ang simula..
Natapos na rin ang workweek at simula na ng bakasayon ng inyong lingkod, sa susunod na linggo pa sya babalik sa real life. Simula na rin ng mahabang oras ng pagiisip sa mga gagawin sa susunod na taon. Sa mga daan na dapat tahakin.
Managing it..
"You are lonely because you are expecting.... all our frustrations all our sadness even happiness purely depends on what our mind expects and wants. it all in the brain... we will be happy if we got our expectations or wants otherwise we will be sad.
Manage your expectations...accept what you have... be thankful that despite of our misgivings in some other aspects in life you are still one of the luckiest person in this world. remember no life is perfect as one wants it to be. but life can be as perfect as it can be if you strive hard to make it as perfect as you can be."
-forwarded from PEX
Manage your expectations...accept what you have... be thankful that despite of our misgivings in some other aspects in life you are still one of the luckiest person in this world. remember no life is perfect as one wants it to be. but life can be as perfect as it can be if you strive hard to make it as perfect as you can be."
-forwarded from PEX
Dobol Wami sa Trapik
Kagabi
-Umalis nang 6pm, kampante na makakarating sa office before 9pm
-Mas matindi pang traffic ang naranasan dahil parehong lane na ang sinara sa paguhuhukay ng Manila Water at DPWH
-Inabot ng halos kalahating minuto sa paghihintay na walang kasigurahan kung uusad ba siya o hindi, napapamura nalang dahil anong oras na at andito pa rin ako
-Mahaba rin ang bila ng 2 terminal pauwi sa area namin, grabe ang dulot ng pesteng paghuhukay na yan,
ilang araw o linggo pa kaya na magtatagal ang mga yan
-20 minuto na late dahil sa traffic
Kanina
-Mabilis ang biyahe ng sinasakyan kong bus, mga 6am nang umalis ako sa office at tuwang tuwa naman ako sa nangyaring iyon
-Hindi ko namalayan, QC International Marathon pala at sarado ang northbound ng Commonwealth avenue, as expected nagkanda-leche leche na naman ang daloy ng trapiko at para eto lang ang nangyari sa akin, may balat kaya ako sa puwet kaya nangyayari ang mga ito
-Sobrang tagal ng usad ng sasakyan, minabuti ko nalang na bumaba at sumakay pa-Batasan area, since sarado ang kalsada eh walang nakakadaan na jeep maliban nalang dun na lumulusot sa Katipunan.
-Inabot na ng ulan kakaantay sa jeep, na hindi naman dumating kung kelan kailangan
-Sumakay nalang ng tricycle papuntang Puregold San Mateo, salamat manang sa advise
-Malakas pa rin ang ulan at sumakay naman ng jeep na pa Montalban, as usual matindi ang traffic pero hindi kasingtindi nang nangyari kagabi. Hindi na ako nakipagsapalaran na dumaan sa Litex at baka ngayong oras eh andun pa ako at baka maubos lang ang pasensya ko
Hays, sunod sunod na kamalasan sa traffic ang naranasan ko ngayon, ano kayang ibig sabihin nito, o hindi lang ako ang napepeste sa pangyayaring ito. Tanda ba ito na masyado nang maraming sasakyan at hindi naman nadadagdagan ang mga service road. Panahon na siguro na mag bisekleta nalang ang lahat at nang mabawas-bawasan ang pulusyon at bigat ng trapiko sa kalsada.
-Umalis nang 6pm, kampante na makakarating sa office before 9pm
-Mas matindi pang traffic ang naranasan dahil parehong lane na ang sinara sa paguhuhukay ng Manila Water at DPWH
-Inabot ng halos kalahating minuto sa paghihintay na walang kasigurahan kung uusad ba siya o hindi, napapamura nalang dahil anong oras na at andito pa rin ako
-Mahaba rin ang bila ng 2 terminal pauwi sa area namin, grabe ang dulot ng pesteng paghuhukay na yan,
ilang araw o linggo pa kaya na magtatagal ang mga yan
-20 minuto na late dahil sa traffic
Kanina
-Mabilis ang biyahe ng sinasakyan kong bus, mga 6am nang umalis ako sa office at tuwang tuwa naman ako sa nangyaring iyon
-Hindi ko namalayan, QC International Marathon pala at sarado ang northbound ng Commonwealth avenue, as expected nagkanda-leche leche na naman ang daloy ng trapiko at para eto lang ang nangyari sa akin, may balat kaya ako sa puwet kaya nangyayari ang mga ito
-Sobrang tagal ng usad ng sasakyan, minabuti ko nalang na bumaba at sumakay pa-Batasan area, since sarado ang kalsada eh walang nakakadaan na jeep maliban nalang dun na lumulusot sa Katipunan.
-Inabot na ng ulan kakaantay sa jeep, na hindi naman dumating kung kelan kailangan
-Sumakay nalang ng tricycle papuntang Puregold San Mateo, salamat manang sa advise
-Malakas pa rin ang ulan at sumakay naman ng jeep na pa Montalban, as usual matindi ang traffic pero hindi kasingtindi nang nangyari kagabi. Hindi na ako nakipagsapalaran na dumaan sa Litex at baka ngayong oras eh andun pa ako at baka maubos lang ang pasensya ko
Hays, sunod sunod na kamalasan sa traffic ang naranasan ko ngayon, ano kayang ibig sabihin nito, o hindi lang ako ang napepeste sa pangyayaring ito. Tanda ba ito na masyado nang maraming sasakyan at hindi naman nadadagdagan ang mga service road. Panahon na siguro na mag bisekleta nalang ang lahat at nang mabawas-bawasan ang pulusyon at bigat ng trapiko sa kalsada.
December na
Bagong buwan na naman
Nakaraos (sana) sa November na sobrang pressure sa work
Ngayong buwan tambak naman ang schedule
Maraming reunions, biyahe at pahinga
Sana lang magawa ko mga naka project nang gagawin this month
Hindi na muna yang pagiging depressed sa lovelife ang iisipin
Kelangan magpayaman muna, ahehe!
Nakaraos (sana) sa November na sobrang pressure sa work
Ngayong buwan tambak naman ang schedule
Maraming reunions, biyahe at pahinga
Sana lang magawa ko mga naka project nang gagawin this month
Hindi na muna yang pagiging depressed sa lovelife ang iisipin
Kelangan magpayaman muna, ahehe!
The Love That I'll Never Have
Ladies and Gentlemen: Good Afternoon. Try to look at the sky, do you think it’s gonna rain? It so amazing to feel rain, the water that flows into you is unstoppable, sometimes raging so fast or maybe gently pours down. Rain is like love. What is love? Love is a very powerful word. It is an unstoppable emotion that is supposed to be felt by every one of us. When someone is in love, actions are set to do in order to show the love and to bind it into a relationship. See that’s what love can do, but does the same thing happen to all of us? The answer is no, there are some love which are not bound to happy ending. Sad but that’s a fact that becomes a part of the Earth’s rotation.
How can you tell to someone that you’re in love with him/ her? It’s too hard, isn’t it? It takes a lot of courage but sometimes the bravery that you have will turn into misery. A thing that can ruin you or mold you to be a better person. Is it fair? I think it is because having the courage to love you should also have the courage to suffer too and love without pain is impossible.
Love can be magic but as we all know magic can sometimes be an illusion. Why can’t it be real? There are certain reasons why can’t we have the love that we are aiming for. Listen to the following phenomena. First, let me ask you, “Who are your celebrity crushes?” have you ever think that a famous celebrity have a feeling for you? Well if you answered a big yes you might be experiencing erotomania a phenomena in which you think a celebrity is falling in love with you and you think that person is your soul mate. Sounds impossible, isn’t it? But it is happening most especially to the teen-agers. Next, who is your best friend? Who are you’re friends? I can tell you who you are by knowing them but I can’t tell if you’ll be falling in love with each other. Respect is what attached person in friendship and it is set to be destroyed by love especially at the end of your story. How about this, is there anyone on your same sex that arouse your interest or maybe a member of your family that you want to build in with? Its more complicated because here people involved thinks about what the people that surrounds them are set to think, it seems like you care a lot about what the society has to say. When we fall in love, it’s the soul that is captured and fighting with it will not be easy. Those alibis are good excuses why can’t you have the love but what if there’s nothing really wrong. What if the reason is just simply the person just don’t like you? That’s the hardest reason possible I think.
The heart broken times, the time where in you're saying that you're an idiot falling for the wrong person. There are times that you're all alone, sleeping and waiting to be woke up by him/ her but unfortunately, and no face appeared as you open your eyes the next morning. We usually do certain things in order to erase that person in your mind. One would probably said that finding another love is the best thing others may moved on with their life and do a lot of things and making their selves busy by giving time for their family, studies, career or even social life. But is forgetting someone who put scar on your face that easy? No, some would probably be stuck in that moment, be a hostage of the love and be trapped there, believing, being faithful, and learning to love without anything in return.
What’s the best option among the list that I have given a while ago? Actually it depends on the person; whatever the choice is let’s respect it. Whatever it is the love inside will never die, still remaining there. I think loving someone without anything in return is a big blessing, its true love, the love that everybody wants but unfortunately ignoring it when its there. The efforts you have would where simply be wasted. It is somewhat like there's a glass that fell on your feet and the blood is already dripping but that person just looks at you, still unconscious, looking but never knew that you did that to get the attention. You'll be doing that until the time that you realized that you became addicted. In your thoughts, in your dreams, that person is always there. He/She is like a leech that sucks blood from you and you can't breathe and you can't see the world without him/her, that person has taken over you and you realized that you need to be fixed.
On the time that you realized you lose yourself and the damage has been done for you, that's the time wherein all you think is how to fight the feeling, how to kill it, it is the hardest part in love. Why are you afraid of losing that person when you know that he/she is not aware that you exist? Forgetting someone is not easy, one must solve the problem in order to forget and its not easy that why the next best option is set to come, to avoid, try to let go. Letting go is not to forget, not to think or to ignore. It doesn't have any feelings of sadness, emptiness, hatred, anger, jealousy or regret. It’s not about pride and it’s not dwelling on the past or blocking memories. Most of all it’s not about giving up and being a loser. To let go is to cherish the memories, to be thankful to the memories that made you laugh, cry and grow but to overcome it and moved on. Its learning, experiencing and growing molded together. It’s having a confidence in the future. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and accept there are things that cannot be, and the strength to keep moving. It’s to open a door and to clear a path and set yourself free.
You realized that the time of departure is already there and as we travel we carry something with us. Everybody would probably agree that its nice to travel with someone who can lighten up our load, but usually its easier to just drop what we've been carrying so we can get to our destination sooner even though there's still no place to land on. Where will we go? Why do we clutch at that baggage even when were desperate to move? Because we still believe that a chance is still there and believing on it, letting go will not be possible instead we walk away to the lovely sunshine that is waiting for us and do the same mistake again, instead of killing it, you already lose control and waking up from this nightmare seems impossible and all you can do is to pray let it be over.
Ladies and gentlemen, a while ago I said that in order to feel love I must be ready to suffer. I feel bad because you, the one who opened my heart was not the one for me but do I have the right to blame you? The answer is no because you didn't asked for it but did you ever realized that you did something to me one day, the day you break my suit of armor by simply taking over me. I'm not the same person I was 2 days ago since that day. Something is different and I can't figure it out and I know I can’t never be that me again. I call your name over and over, like a refrain. I became your hostage; you ate me and leave me like the last piece of cookie in the jar, all alone and broken. I’ve been lickin’ my wounds but the venom seeps deeper and I’m about to break that’s why I need to walk away from you that's why I cried a river and made a bridge that I’m about to pass. I know I can pass the bridge without looking back at your side, without regretting that I passed it. The time that I can be on the other side of the bridge, smiling and facing the lovely day that I've should felt before when I was with you. I know that day will come, very soon, very very soon.
-from PEX
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