Malapit nang magtapos ang taon, maraming pangyayari ang naganap nitong taon na ito. Maraming masasaya lalo na mga galaan at iba pang mga events, marami ring malungkot kagaya ng breakups at stress sa work na magsisilbing aral na naman sa atin at maging reason para maging matatag at harapin ang bagong hamon ng Bagong Taon. Sana matuto na sa mga nakaraang mga pagkakamali. Tahakin ang landas na inaakala mong tama at wag mag-iwan ng regrets. Tinahanak natin yan at tayo rin ang gagawa para labasan ito at pagtagumpayan. Salamat sa lahat ng aking mga kaibigan at kaaway at sa family that shaped me on what I am today. Sana'y maging maliwanag ang hinaharap natin sa taong 2012. Bagong buhay. Bagong simula. Bagong Pag-asa!
In the name of [Love]
"I loved and lost. I tried loving someone else. But life is full of surprises. Who could have guessed that one day, our paths would cross again, xxx. And its way better this time. No more bitterness, no more anger. Just pure friendship. In time, people really move on and forgiveness becomes easy. When we let go of the pain, it leaves nothing in our hearts but love. It may not be romantic but this is way better than what we almost had. And to you xxxx, I wish you luck as you seek for greener pasture abroad. I hope we could have shared more moments together. Pero wala eh, hanggang dun lang yata talaga."
-The End of the Road, Kenchus' Rushed Performance
There are times..
There are just times when people feel too down to even help their own self, but there always comes a reason for people to look up once again and see the things they almost missed..
-Build Number One: Floor (Part Eighteen), Knox' One Midnight Wolf
I Believe
Believe in yourself. Not in you who believe in me. Not in me who believe in you. You should believe... you should believe in yourself!
Current
-done with Lord of the Rings trilogy, thanks sir Jemar for the Dark Elf Trilogy - Legend of Drizzt Books
-hindi ko matapos tapos ang ibang anime pero effort ko itong Gurren Lagann
-movies, currently downloading Paranormal Activity series and Pirates of the Caribbean
-big Walking Dead fan kaya downloading the season 2 up to episode 7 since sa February pa ang next episode
-hindi ko matapos tapos ang ibang anime pero effort ko itong Gurren Lagann
-movies, currently downloading Paranormal Activity series and Pirates of the Caribbean
-big Walking Dead fan kaya downloading the season 2 up to episode 7 since sa February pa ang next episode
Kuntento
"Nalulungkot ka kasi hindi napasaiyo ang gusto mo, Pero mas Blessed ka kasi kahit paano ay meron ka, Tumingin ka sa paligid mo, pansinin mo ang mga batang lansangan, Isang tinapay lamang ay masaya na sila.
Mas swerte ka pa rin!"
-It's your Choice, Mark's Kol me Empi
Mas swerte ka pa rin!"
-It's your Choice, Mark's Kol me Empi
Tseklis
-New shoes.. tsek
-Register at Bullrun.. tsek pero disappointed dahil 16k dapat
-Notebook.. tsek at dito lang naubos ang 13th month
-Fishing.. tsek, will do hunting and biking next year
-Bonding with tropa.. tsek, satisfied at bitin
-Read new book.. tsek, thanks sir Jemar for the Legend of Drizzt
-Exchange gift sa office.. tsek, kanina lang
on the way..
College reunion, miss you guys!
Hiking/trekking equipment, wish ko lang me pera pako
Sagada Trip, no matter what happens, kelangan matuloy ito
Great Canadian/NZ dream, yearlong project ng mga officemates
asa..
Lovelife
Peace of Mind
Milyonaryo
-Register at Bullrun.. tsek pero disappointed dahil 16k dapat
-Notebook.. tsek at dito lang naubos ang 13th month
-Fishing.. tsek, will do hunting and biking next year
-Bonding with tropa.. tsek, satisfied at bitin
-Read new book.. tsek, thanks sir Jemar for the Legend of Drizzt
-Exchange gift sa office.. tsek, kanina lang
on the way..
College reunion, miss you guys!
Hiking/trekking equipment, wish ko lang me pera pako
Sagada Trip, no matter what happens, kelangan matuloy ito
Great Canadian/NZ dream, yearlong project ng mga officemates
asa..
Lovelife
Peace of Mind
Milyonaryo
Lamig-lamig..
Panay ang ulan nitong nakaraang mga araw, lalo lang nababagot sa bahay at alam sa amin na gala talaga ako at hindi pirmi sa pa rest day, hayz, anu ba itong nararamdaman ko, blame it again to the weather, ilang araw, buwan at taon na ang lumilipas na single parin, ang lamig lamig ng panahon, nakakalungkot at mag-isa nalang palagi sa pagmumuni-muni. Isang tao lang ang nasa isip ko na gusto kong makasama hanggang sa huling araw ng aking buhay pero hindi pwede maging kami at hindi talaga magiging kami kaya heto inaalo nalang sarili ko sa isang tagong mundo na tinatawag na pantasya, na sa mundong ito pwede maging kami at habambuhay na masaya.
Pero sa pagbalik ng ulirat, balik na naman sa realidad, na mag-isa kalang sa buhay, walang katuwang o masasabihan ng nasasaloob, nakakalungkot pero wala akong magawa. Ayokong i-risk ang pagkakaibigan namin at mauwi sa wala ang lahat. Masaya na ako na ganito, siguro panahon nalang ang makapagsasabi at huhusga sa akin. Sana matutunan ko na rin kung paano maging masaya..
Pero sa pagbalik ng ulirat, balik na naman sa realidad, na mag-isa kalang sa buhay, walang katuwang o masasabihan ng nasasaloob, nakakalungkot pero wala akong magawa. Ayokong i-risk ang pagkakaibigan namin at mauwi sa wala ang lahat. Masaya na ako na ganito, siguro panahon nalang ang makapagsasabi at huhusga sa akin. Sana matutunan ko na rin kung paano maging masaya..
Time
"..you say that time is the greatest thief — it takes away money, steals hope, corrupts ideologies. time steals time, washes over emotions, and builds uncertainty; it takes the same time to shatter and forget them all. but i know one thing that doesn't require time: to make no sense.."
-Time after time,Through the sadness
-Time after time,Through the sadness
Kopya
Hindi muna nakapag jogging dahil maga pa ang binti dahil sa sunod-sunod na pagtakbo. Naka-text si Cyril at napag-usapan na punta ako sa kanila para kumopya ng movie/anime kesa mag-antay pa ako ng matagal sa Torrents.
Habang siya eh naglalaro ng Persona 4, busy naman akong kopya ng 2 anime sa kanya. Hindi ako makapili sa dami ng movies kaya iyon nalang muna. Thanks sa hospitality at pinakain pa nila ako ng Sinigang na baboy at cassave cave special for dessert. Waaa!
Sayang nga lang at talagang alanganin si Cyril para sa get together at Midweek ang rest day niya at ubos na rin ang leave niya kaya malamang eh next year pa kami magkikita-kita nito nang kumpleto. Thanks ulit Cyril at balik nalang ako para kumopya ulit ng mga movies. Bow!
Habang siya eh naglalaro ng Persona 4, busy naman akong kopya ng 2 anime sa kanya. Hindi ako makapili sa dami ng movies kaya iyon nalang muna. Thanks sa hospitality at pinakain pa nila ako ng Sinigang na baboy at cassave cave special for dessert. Waaa!
Sayang nga lang at talagang alanganin si Cyril para sa get together at Midweek ang rest day niya at ubos na rin ang leave niya kaya malamang eh next year pa kami magkikita-kita nito nang kumpleto. Thanks ulit Cyril at balik nalang ako para kumopya ulit ng mga movies. Bow!
Register
11am. Maambon-ambon hanggang sa umulan. Nagkita kami nina Rene at Thomas. Usap-usap sa mga balita hanggang sa makarating sa SM North para mag register sa PSE Bull Run 2012. Hoping na sana eh may slots pa for 16k. Sad to say wala na talaga at na kuntento nalang kami sa 10k, *sad*.
Gala muna saglit at tingin-tingin bago magpunta sa WalterMart sa Munoz around 2pm. Tingin ng mga shoes sa SportsWarehouse na recommended ng former supervisor ko. Mura nga talaga siya pero sad at wala sa size ko mga available sa kanila. Nalaman ko nga rin pala na Middle/Flat ang paa ko salamat dun sa Adidas store.
Kumain muna ng lunch bago umalis at napagpasyahang mag MRT dahil balak ni Thomas dumaan sa Marikina via Cubao at may titingnan daw siya. Pero napagpasyahan na bukas nalang daw at alanganin. Kaya bumalik kami sa sale ng mga gears sa Trinoma Activity Center, tingin-tingin lang. Umakyat sa Olympic World at nakabili rin ng running shoes. Sana nga lang Black/Red combination kaso wala talaga at nakuntento ulit sa White/Neon Green combi para reflector narin pag gabi.
Gabi na kami nakauwi sa amin. Salamat sa bonding Rene at Thomas. Excited na sa Bull Run!
Gala muna saglit at tingin-tingin bago magpunta sa WalterMart sa Munoz around 2pm. Tingin ng mga shoes sa SportsWarehouse na recommended ng former supervisor ko. Mura nga talaga siya pero sad at wala sa size ko mga available sa kanila. Nalaman ko nga rin pala na Middle/Flat ang paa ko salamat dun sa Adidas store.
Kumain muna ng lunch bago umalis at napagpasyahang mag MRT dahil balak ni Thomas dumaan sa Marikina via Cubao at may titingnan daw siya. Pero napagpasyahan na bukas nalang daw at alanganin. Kaya bumalik kami sa sale ng mga gears sa Trinoma Activity Center, tingin-tingin lang. Umakyat sa Olympic World at nakabili rin ng running shoes. Sana nga lang Black/Red combination kaso wala talaga at nakuntento ulit sa White/Neon Green combi para reflector narin pag gabi.
Gabi na kami nakauwi sa amin. Salamat sa bonding Rene at Thomas. Excited na sa Bull Run!
Eco
gumala kasama si Angelo sa La Mesa EcoPark, late notice dahil akala ko eh hindi kami matutuloy kaya naman after ng jogging eh set ulit namin yung time para magkita, mga past 10am na kami nakarating at mainit na talaga, nakita pa namin dun ang host ng Landmarks sa Net 25, sayang nga lang at hindi kami nakapag autograph. mga bandang alas-2 ng hapon na kami nakalabas sa Park at sayang nga at hindi natuloy sa fishing dahil wala ang attendant..
Aktibidad
Palapit na nang palapit ang katapusan ng taon. Maraming mga events at reunions na nangyayari. Sobrang dami hindi mo alam kung ano ang prioritize mo.
Sad nga lang at medyo cancel muna ang Vigan trip pero syempre ok lang at marami pa namang pagkakataon at pag ok na ang mga kasama ko tutuloy namin ito sa ibang buwan. Iyun nga lang, kelangan makapag isip ng mga gagawin lalo na't meron akong isang linggo na nasa bahay lang at kelangan maging produktibo at kapaki-pakinabang sa akin.
Iniisip kong umakyat sa Baguio at makapag ukay-ukay. Pwede rin naman na malapit lang sa amin sa Avilon Zoo at pagusapan ang get together ng PS boys. O kaya sa EcoPark naman kasama si Angelo para samahan siya sa kanyang libangan na pangingisda.
Mas masarap sana kung makakapag out of town ako. Para makapag isip or unwind. Mahaba pa naman ang panahon at may oras pang makapag-isip kung san ok pumunta nang hindi masyado magastos at kelangan na magtipid.
Ginagawa ko ito para malibang at maging diversion narin para sa nangungulila kong puso na sana dumating na sa susunod na taon ang right person for me. *sigh*
Sad nga lang at medyo cancel muna ang Vigan trip pero syempre ok lang at marami pa namang pagkakataon at pag ok na ang mga kasama ko tutuloy namin ito sa ibang buwan. Iyun nga lang, kelangan makapag isip ng mga gagawin lalo na't meron akong isang linggo na nasa bahay lang at kelangan maging produktibo at kapaki-pakinabang sa akin.
Iniisip kong umakyat sa Baguio at makapag ukay-ukay. Pwede rin naman na malapit lang sa amin sa Avilon Zoo at pagusapan ang get together ng PS boys. O kaya sa EcoPark naman kasama si Angelo para samahan siya sa kanyang libangan na pangingisda.
Mas masarap sana kung makakapag out of town ako. Para makapag isip or unwind. Mahaba pa naman ang panahon at may oras pang makapag-isip kung san ok pumunta nang hindi masyado magastos at kelangan na magtipid.
Ginagawa ko ito para malibang at maging diversion narin para sa nangungulila kong puso na sana dumating na sa susunod na taon ang right person for me. *sigh*
Ang simula..
Natapos na rin ang workweek at simula na ng bakasayon ng inyong lingkod, sa susunod na linggo pa sya babalik sa real life. Simula na rin ng mahabang oras ng pagiisip sa mga gagawin sa susunod na taon. Sa mga daan na dapat tahakin.
Managing it..
"You are lonely because you are expecting.... all our frustrations all our sadness even happiness purely depends on what our mind expects and wants. it all in the brain... we will be happy if we got our expectations or wants otherwise we will be sad.
Manage your expectations...accept what you have... be thankful that despite of our misgivings in some other aspects in life you are still one of the luckiest person in this world. remember no life is perfect as one wants it to be. but life can be as perfect as it can be if you strive hard to make it as perfect as you can be."
-forwarded from PEX
Manage your expectations...accept what you have... be thankful that despite of our misgivings in some other aspects in life you are still one of the luckiest person in this world. remember no life is perfect as one wants it to be. but life can be as perfect as it can be if you strive hard to make it as perfect as you can be."
-forwarded from PEX
Dobol Wami sa Trapik
Kagabi
-Umalis nang 6pm, kampante na makakarating sa office before 9pm
-Mas matindi pang traffic ang naranasan dahil parehong lane na ang sinara sa paguhuhukay ng Manila Water at DPWH
-Inabot ng halos kalahating minuto sa paghihintay na walang kasigurahan kung uusad ba siya o hindi, napapamura nalang dahil anong oras na at andito pa rin ako
-Mahaba rin ang bila ng 2 terminal pauwi sa area namin, grabe ang dulot ng pesteng paghuhukay na yan,
ilang araw o linggo pa kaya na magtatagal ang mga yan
-20 minuto na late dahil sa traffic
Kanina
-Mabilis ang biyahe ng sinasakyan kong bus, mga 6am nang umalis ako sa office at tuwang tuwa naman ako sa nangyaring iyon
-Hindi ko namalayan, QC International Marathon pala at sarado ang northbound ng Commonwealth avenue, as expected nagkanda-leche leche na naman ang daloy ng trapiko at para eto lang ang nangyari sa akin, may balat kaya ako sa puwet kaya nangyayari ang mga ito
-Sobrang tagal ng usad ng sasakyan, minabuti ko nalang na bumaba at sumakay pa-Batasan area, since sarado ang kalsada eh walang nakakadaan na jeep maliban nalang dun na lumulusot sa Katipunan.
-Inabot na ng ulan kakaantay sa jeep, na hindi naman dumating kung kelan kailangan
-Sumakay nalang ng tricycle papuntang Puregold San Mateo, salamat manang sa advise
-Malakas pa rin ang ulan at sumakay naman ng jeep na pa Montalban, as usual matindi ang traffic pero hindi kasingtindi nang nangyari kagabi. Hindi na ako nakipagsapalaran na dumaan sa Litex at baka ngayong oras eh andun pa ako at baka maubos lang ang pasensya ko
Hays, sunod sunod na kamalasan sa traffic ang naranasan ko ngayon, ano kayang ibig sabihin nito, o hindi lang ako ang napepeste sa pangyayaring ito. Tanda ba ito na masyado nang maraming sasakyan at hindi naman nadadagdagan ang mga service road. Panahon na siguro na mag bisekleta nalang ang lahat at nang mabawas-bawasan ang pulusyon at bigat ng trapiko sa kalsada.
-Umalis nang 6pm, kampante na makakarating sa office before 9pm
-Mas matindi pang traffic ang naranasan dahil parehong lane na ang sinara sa paguhuhukay ng Manila Water at DPWH
-Inabot ng halos kalahating minuto sa paghihintay na walang kasigurahan kung uusad ba siya o hindi, napapamura nalang dahil anong oras na at andito pa rin ako
-Mahaba rin ang bila ng 2 terminal pauwi sa area namin, grabe ang dulot ng pesteng paghuhukay na yan,
ilang araw o linggo pa kaya na magtatagal ang mga yan
-20 minuto na late dahil sa traffic
Kanina
-Mabilis ang biyahe ng sinasakyan kong bus, mga 6am nang umalis ako sa office at tuwang tuwa naman ako sa nangyaring iyon
-Hindi ko namalayan, QC International Marathon pala at sarado ang northbound ng Commonwealth avenue, as expected nagkanda-leche leche na naman ang daloy ng trapiko at para eto lang ang nangyari sa akin, may balat kaya ako sa puwet kaya nangyayari ang mga ito
-Sobrang tagal ng usad ng sasakyan, minabuti ko nalang na bumaba at sumakay pa-Batasan area, since sarado ang kalsada eh walang nakakadaan na jeep maliban nalang dun na lumulusot sa Katipunan.
-Inabot na ng ulan kakaantay sa jeep, na hindi naman dumating kung kelan kailangan
-Sumakay nalang ng tricycle papuntang Puregold San Mateo, salamat manang sa advise
-Malakas pa rin ang ulan at sumakay naman ng jeep na pa Montalban, as usual matindi ang traffic pero hindi kasingtindi nang nangyari kagabi. Hindi na ako nakipagsapalaran na dumaan sa Litex at baka ngayong oras eh andun pa ako at baka maubos lang ang pasensya ko
Hays, sunod sunod na kamalasan sa traffic ang naranasan ko ngayon, ano kayang ibig sabihin nito, o hindi lang ako ang napepeste sa pangyayaring ito. Tanda ba ito na masyado nang maraming sasakyan at hindi naman nadadagdagan ang mga service road. Panahon na siguro na mag bisekleta nalang ang lahat at nang mabawas-bawasan ang pulusyon at bigat ng trapiko sa kalsada.
December na
Bagong buwan na naman
Nakaraos (sana) sa November na sobrang pressure sa work
Ngayong buwan tambak naman ang schedule
Maraming reunions, biyahe at pahinga
Sana lang magawa ko mga naka project nang gagawin this month
Hindi na muna yang pagiging depressed sa lovelife ang iisipin
Kelangan magpayaman muna, ahehe!
Nakaraos (sana) sa November na sobrang pressure sa work
Ngayong buwan tambak naman ang schedule
Maraming reunions, biyahe at pahinga
Sana lang magawa ko mga naka project nang gagawin this month
Hindi na muna yang pagiging depressed sa lovelife ang iisipin
Kelangan magpayaman muna, ahehe!
The Love That I'll Never Have
Ladies and Gentlemen: Good Afternoon. Try to look at the sky, do you think it’s gonna rain? It so amazing to feel rain, the water that flows into you is unstoppable, sometimes raging so fast or maybe gently pours down. Rain is like love. What is love? Love is a very powerful word. It is an unstoppable emotion that is supposed to be felt by every one of us. When someone is in love, actions are set to do in order to show the love and to bind it into a relationship. See that’s what love can do, but does the same thing happen to all of us? The answer is no, there are some love which are not bound to happy ending. Sad but that’s a fact that becomes a part of the Earth’s rotation.
How can you tell to someone that you’re in love with him/ her? It’s too hard, isn’t it? It takes a lot of courage but sometimes the bravery that you have will turn into misery. A thing that can ruin you or mold you to be a better person. Is it fair? I think it is because having the courage to love you should also have the courage to suffer too and love without pain is impossible.
Love can be magic but as we all know magic can sometimes be an illusion. Why can’t it be real? There are certain reasons why can’t we have the love that we are aiming for. Listen to the following phenomena. First, let me ask you, “Who are your celebrity crushes?” have you ever think that a famous celebrity have a feeling for you? Well if you answered a big yes you might be experiencing erotomania a phenomena in which you think a celebrity is falling in love with you and you think that person is your soul mate. Sounds impossible, isn’t it? But it is happening most especially to the teen-agers. Next, who is your best friend? Who are you’re friends? I can tell you who you are by knowing them but I can’t tell if you’ll be falling in love with each other. Respect is what attached person in friendship and it is set to be destroyed by love especially at the end of your story. How about this, is there anyone on your same sex that arouse your interest or maybe a member of your family that you want to build in with? Its more complicated because here people involved thinks about what the people that surrounds them are set to think, it seems like you care a lot about what the society has to say. When we fall in love, it’s the soul that is captured and fighting with it will not be easy. Those alibis are good excuses why can’t you have the love but what if there’s nothing really wrong. What if the reason is just simply the person just don’t like you? That’s the hardest reason possible I think.
The heart broken times, the time where in you're saying that you're an idiot falling for the wrong person. There are times that you're all alone, sleeping and waiting to be woke up by him/ her but unfortunately, and no face appeared as you open your eyes the next morning. We usually do certain things in order to erase that person in your mind. One would probably said that finding another love is the best thing others may moved on with their life and do a lot of things and making their selves busy by giving time for their family, studies, career or even social life. But is forgetting someone who put scar on your face that easy? No, some would probably be stuck in that moment, be a hostage of the love and be trapped there, believing, being faithful, and learning to love without anything in return.
What’s the best option among the list that I have given a while ago? Actually it depends on the person; whatever the choice is let’s respect it. Whatever it is the love inside will never die, still remaining there. I think loving someone without anything in return is a big blessing, its true love, the love that everybody wants but unfortunately ignoring it when its there. The efforts you have would where simply be wasted. It is somewhat like there's a glass that fell on your feet and the blood is already dripping but that person just looks at you, still unconscious, looking but never knew that you did that to get the attention. You'll be doing that until the time that you realized that you became addicted. In your thoughts, in your dreams, that person is always there. He/She is like a leech that sucks blood from you and you can't breathe and you can't see the world without him/her, that person has taken over you and you realized that you need to be fixed.
On the time that you realized you lose yourself and the damage has been done for you, that's the time wherein all you think is how to fight the feeling, how to kill it, it is the hardest part in love. Why are you afraid of losing that person when you know that he/she is not aware that you exist? Forgetting someone is not easy, one must solve the problem in order to forget and its not easy that why the next best option is set to come, to avoid, try to let go. Letting go is not to forget, not to think or to ignore. It doesn't have any feelings of sadness, emptiness, hatred, anger, jealousy or regret. It’s not about pride and it’s not dwelling on the past or blocking memories. Most of all it’s not about giving up and being a loser. To let go is to cherish the memories, to be thankful to the memories that made you laugh, cry and grow but to overcome it and moved on. Its learning, experiencing and growing molded together. It’s having a confidence in the future. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and accept there are things that cannot be, and the strength to keep moving. It’s to open a door and to clear a path and set yourself free.
You realized that the time of departure is already there and as we travel we carry something with us. Everybody would probably agree that its nice to travel with someone who can lighten up our load, but usually its easier to just drop what we've been carrying so we can get to our destination sooner even though there's still no place to land on. Where will we go? Why do we clutch at that baggage even when were desperate to move? Because we still believe that a chance is still there and believing on it, letting go will not be possible instead we walk away to the lovely sunshine that is waiting for us and do the same mistake again, instead of killing it, you already lose control and waking up from this nightmare seems impossible and all you can do is to pray let it be over.
Ladies and gentlemen, a while ago I said that in order to feel love I must be ready to suffer. I feel bad because you, the one who opened my heart was not the one for me but do I have the right to blame you? The answer is no because you didn't asked for it but did you ever realized that you did something to me one day, the day you break my suit of armor by simply taking over me. I'm not the same person I was 2 days ago since that day. Something is different and I can't figure it out and I know I can’t never be that me again. I call your name over and over, like a refrain. I became your hostage; you ate me and leave me like the last piece of cookie in the jar, all alone and broken. I’ve been lickin’ my wounds but the venom seeps deeper and I’m about to break that’s why I need to walk away from you that's why I cried a river and made a bridge that I’m about to pass. I know I can pass the bridge without looking back at your side, without regretting that I passed it. The time that I can be on the other side of the bridge, smiling and facing the lovely day that I've should felt before when I was with you. I know that day will come, very soon, very very soon.
-from PEX
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Teh Safest way..
"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket — safe, dark, motionless, airless — it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell."
-C.S. Lewis
Self Thot
When you've realized that all you have is yourself, you can go on with life without any dependence from others..
Wikend
Sabado
Comatose nang buong hapon at nagising nalang bandang 9 ng gabi. Grabeng OT yan hehe na sinamahan pa ng perwisyo ng paghuhukay dyan sa Payatas.Nag-net nalang sa notebook buong gabi at inantay nalang ang ika-4 ng umaga.
Linggo
Naghanda para sa jogging sa school oval ng San Jose, umalis sa bahay mga 4.30 ng umaga at naglakad nalang. Kahit maaga marami na rin ang nag jogging. Sumabay sa mga tanders na joggers at kung paano ma-maintain ang bilis at makarami ng laps. In the end sila rin ang bumigay at ako nalang ang nagpatuloy. Masarap talaga pag merong kang kasabayan or point of reference para alam mo ang bilis mo sa pagtakbo. Naka-ilang lap din ako nun bago ko naramdaman ang pagsisikip ng dibdib. Kinarir kasi.
Inspired rin kasi nakita ko ang crush jogger ko at ayun, nakaw-tingin palagi pag naglalapit kami or nakakasabay siya, to the point na nag counter clockwise pa ako para masalubong lang siya. Sandali lang siya at umalis rin mga ilang laps. Kaya ako pahinga na lang bago umuwi sa amin. Pero nakasalubong ko naman siya nang pauwi na ako sa amin kaya tumigil na naman ang mundo. Toinks.
Kinahapunan eh niyaya ko si Angelo na mag food trip. Dumaan saglit kay Manong Ed para tingin ng mga books at kinuha number niya para just in case may stock ng gusto ko eh makakakuha siya sa super murang halaga compared sa price sa bookstore.
Dumaan muna kami sa Puregold para maglibot libot dahil hindi pa nakakapunta si Angelo dun at nagtingin na rin ako ng ref at naghahanap ng mura pero ok. Tapos eh dumaan na kami sa Town Center at kumain sa fastfood, then nag National Bookstore para tingin ng books, then Handyman naman at nagbabakasakali kung meron silang fishing pole, hindi na kasi natuloy-tuloy yung plano namin na mangisda para maiba naman, bukod pa run ang hunting sa forest kasama Tito niya at eto pang biking lalo na't bumili siya ng mountain bike at ako naman eh papaayos ang sa akin.
Maraming pwedeng gawin, wala lang oras at resources, sana lang tumigil o bumagal ang oras para ma-enjoy naming tropa ang mga activities na ito. Paguwi eh nakaramdam ako ng pagod at antok dahil almost 24 oras na akong gising at bagsak agad sa higaan matapos maligo. Siguro sa Martes nalang ang jogging at masakit pa ang katawan at baka magkasakit pa pag pinilit.
Comatose nang buong hapon at nagising nalang bandang 9 ng gabi. Grabeng OT yan hehe na sinamahan pa ng perwisyo ng paghuhukay dyan sa Payatas.Nag-net nalang sa notebook buong gabi at inantay nalang ang ika-4 ng umaga.
Linggo
Naghanda para sa jogging sa school oval ng San Jose, umalis sa bahay mga 4.30 ng umaga at naglakad nalang. Kahit maaga marami na rin ang nag jogging. Sumabay sa mga tanders na joggers at kung paano ma-maintain ang bilis at makarami ng laps. In the end sila rin ang bumigay at ako nalang ang nagpatuloy. Masarap talaga pag merong kang kasabayan or point of reference para alam mo ang bilis mo sa pagtakbo. Naka-ilang lap din ako nun bago ko naramdaman ang pagsisikip ng dibdib. Kinarir kasi.
Inspired rin kasi nakita ko ang crush jogger ko at ayun, nakaw-tingin palagi pag naglalapit kami or nakakasabay siya, to the point na nag counter clockwise pa ako para masalubong lang siya. Sandali lang siya at umalis rin mga ilang laps. Kaya ako pahinga na lang bago umuwi sa amin. Pero nakasalubong ko naman siya nang pauwi na ako sa amin kaya tumigil na naman ang mundo. Toinks.
Kinahapunan eh niyaya ko si Angelo na mag food trip. Dumaan saglit kay Manong Ed para tingin ng mga books at kinuha number niya para just in case may stock ng gusto ko eh makakakuha siya sa super murang halaga compared sa price sa bookstore.
Dumaan muna kami sa Puregold para maglibot libot dahil hindi pa nakakapunta si Angelo dun at nagtingin na rin ako ng ref at naghahanap ng mura pero ok. Tapos eh dumaan na kami sa Town Center at kumain sa fastfood, then nag National Bookstore para tingin ng books, then Handyman naman at nagbabakasakali kung meron silang fishing pole, hindi na kasi natuloy-tuloy yung plano namin na mangisda para maiba naman, bukod pa run ang hunting sa forest kasama Tito niya at eto pang biking lalo na't bumili siya ng mountain bike at ako naman eh papaayos ang sa akin.
Maraming pwedeng gawin, wala lang oras at resources, sana lang tumigil o bumagal ang oras para ma-enjoy naming tropa ang mga activities na ito. Paguwi eh nakaramdam ako ng pagod at antok dahil almost 24 oras na akong gising at bagsak agad sa higaan matapos maligo. Siguro sa Martes nalang ang jogging at masakit pa ang katawan at baka magkasakit pa pag pinilit.
LSS - It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop
sigh.. napapakanta nalang minsan pag nasa loob ng MRT or kapag nasa biyahe at ako lang ang pasahero.. lalo na ang line na.. "wishing there would be, someone waiting over me.."
Pesteng araw
Grabe, ngayon lang sinaid ng traffic na yan ang pasensya ko. For almost 2 hours stuck sa traffic. Alikabok, usok, init at pawis eh nagsama-sama nung oras na yun.
Panay ang hukay nang hukay ng kalsada para lang makakurakot. Ayos ang kalsada, sinisira. Mga walanghiya talaga. Ang haba haba na ng traffic araw araw nalang at lagpas na ng isang buwan iyang pesteng paghuhukay na yan. Mapipilitan akong mag alternate nito. Kainis.
Panay ang hukay nang hukay ng kalsada para lang makakurakot. Ayos ang kalsada, sinisira. Mga walanghiya talaga. Ang haba haba na ng traffic araw araw nalang at lagpas na ng isang buwan iyang pesteng paghuhukay na yan. Mapipilitan akong mag alternate nito. Kainis.
Aktibidad
Medyo homebud nitong mga nakaraan mga linggo lalo na't hindi ok ang panahon.
Sa bahay, basa lang ng books, 3rd book ng Lord of the Rings - Return of the King. Then download lang ng torrents and right now Visionaries: Knights of the Magical Light.
Daming gagawin next month, reunions, local trips, year-end party. Still hoping na magiging Ok ang performance sa work para maisagawa ko mga plano sa susunod na taon. At kung hindi, no choice kundi tahakin ang daan na walang kasiguruhan. Bahala na.
Sa bahay, basa lang ng books, 3rd book ng Lord of the Rings - Return of the King. Then download lang ng torrents and right now Visionaries: Knights of the Magical Light.
Daming gagawin next month, reunions, local trips, year-end party. Still hoping na magiging Ok ang performance sa work para maisagawa ko mga plano sa susunod na taon. At kung hindi, no choice kundi tahakin ang daan na walang kasiguruhan. Bahala na.
Tenksgibing
Happy Thanksgiving sa mga US friends natin. Yay! Walang pasok! Pero dahil sa super OT at karir kanina. Comatose ako buong hapon at gabi na nagising.
Eto net buong gabi at bukas ng umaga try kong mag jogging then back to work na naman. Ciao!
Eto net buong gabi at bukas ng umaga try kong mag jogging then back to work na naman. Ciao!
Nu meron?
Matagal tagal narin bago nakapag update sa blog. Patapos na rin kasi ang taon kaya ang daming activities. Office palang tambak na sa work at maraming mga events.
Gift ko sa sarili ko, bumili ng notebook para makapag net narin kahit nasa bahay. Thanks nga pala Sir Ramgel for this and sa tips and advice.
Hindi na nga ako nakabili ng refrigerator para sa tindahan at baka magipon nalang ako for December para happy na mga tao sa haus.
Wish ko lang din, sana next year mahanap ko na si special someone, ang hirap niya hanapin.. Hays!
Gift ko sa sarili ko, bumili ng notebook para makapag net narin kahit nasa bahay. Thanks nga pala Sir Ramgel for this and sa tips and advice.
Hindi na nga ako nakabili ng refrigerator para sa tindahan at baka magipon nalang ako for December para happy na mga tao sa haus.
Wish ko lang din, sana next year mahanap ko na si special someone, ang hirap niya hanapin.. Hays!
Excited sa takbo..
Hindi na nga ako nakatulog kagabi dahil sa Takbo sa Ilog Pasig na yan, wala akong makakasabay o matutuluyan man lang, kahit kung kani-kanino na ako nag-text pero Ok lang, in the end naman walang tutulong sa iyo kundi sarili mo kaya no hard feelings at think for the best nalang.
Muntik na akong ma-late dahil sa katakot-takot na traffic mula sa Pasay Rotonda bukod pa kanina sa FX na super bagal ang byahe. Nagkukumahog sa pagtakbo iyon naman pala eh lagpas na alas-5 nagsimula ang takbuhan.
Kasabay ang mga co-workers pero sa ibang department, tinahak ang 10k race, medyo nahirapan ako pagdating ng 3k dahil sumikip ang dibdib ko kaya dahan-dahan ako sa pagusad. Nakaraos naman sa huli at umaasa na ma beat ko ang previous record ko sa Unilab Run United na 1hr, 14mins at target ko talaga bago mag 1 hour eh matapos ko ang race.
Kaunting picture-picture sa iba, sa activity area hanggang sa napagpasyahang umuwi na bago pa mag-9am para makahabol sa free ride sa MRT. Nakarating sa amin bandang alas-11 na ng umaga, salamat sa pesteng traffic sa zigzag na ilang buwan nang ginagawa ang kalsada.
Nakatulog sa sobrang pagod at gabi na nagising. Though struggling parin sa 10k eh nakakaraos naman ang inyong lingkod hanggang sa marating niya ang final goal na sumali sa mga 21k run. Hanggang sa muli..
Muntik na akong ma-late dahil sa katakot-takot na traffic mula sa Pasay Rotonda bukod pa kanina sa FX na super bagal ang byahe. Nagkukumahog sa pagtakbo iyon naman pala eh lagpas na alas-5 nagsimula ang takbuhan.
Kasabay ang mga co-workers pero sa ibang department, tinahak ang 10k race, medyo nahirapan ako pagdating ng 3k dahil sumikip ang dibdib ko kaya dahan-dahan ako sa pagusad. Nakaraos naman sa huli at umaasa na ma beat ko ang previous record ko sa Unilab Run United na 1hr, 14mins at target ko talaga bago mag 1 hour eh matapos ko ang race.
Kaunting picture-picture sa iba, sa activity area hanggang sa napagpasyahang umuwi na bago pa mag-9am para makahabol sa free ride sa MRT. Nakarating sa amin bandang alas-11 na ng umaga, salamat sa pesteng traffic sa zigzag na ilang buwan nang ginagawa ang kalsada.
Nakatulog sa sobrang pagod at gabi na nagising. Though struggling parin sa 10k eh nakakaraos naman ang inyong lingkod hanggang sa marating niya ang final goal na sumali sa mga 21k run. Hanggang sa muli..
Numerolohiya
You entered: [real name]
There are 14 letters in your name.
Those 14 letters total to 64
There are 5 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.
What your first name means:
Teutonic Male God's peace.
German Male Derived from one of three Old German names, meaning district, traveler, or peaceful pledge. Famous bearer: Geoffrey Plantagenet was father to King Henry II; Geoffrey Cbaucer wrote 'The Canterbury Tales'.
French Male Divine peace.
English Male Derived from one of three Old German names, meaning: district, traveler, or peaceful pledge.
Anglo-Saxon Male Peaceful gift.
Your number is: 1
The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.
The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.
The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.
Your Soul Urge number is: 2
A Soul Urge number of 2 means:
With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.
In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.
If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.
Your Inner Dream number is: 8
An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.
There are 14 letters in your name.
Those 14 letters total to 64
There are 5 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.
What your first name means:
Teutonic Male God's peace.
German Male Derived from one of three Old German names, meaning district, traveler, or peaceful pledge. Famous bearer: Geoffrey Plantagenet was father to King Henry II; Geoffrey Cbaucer wrote 'The Canterbury Tales'.
French Male Divine peace.
English Male Derived from one of three Old German names, meaning: district, traveler, or peaceful pledge.
Anglo-Saxon Male Peaceful gift.
Your number is: 1
The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.
The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.
Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.
The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.
Your Soul Urge number is: 2
A Soul Urge number of 2 means:
With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.
In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.
If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.
Your Inner Dream number is: 8
An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.
Pagod na sa Kakaisip
Sa dami kong iniisip, it end up na gusto ko na bumitaw sa relasyon. Iniisip ko kasi para mawala na lahat ng mga nasa isip ko mas mabuti kung maghiwalay na. Pero sa isang parte ng isipan at puso ko ay nagtatanong kung kaya ko ba? Madaming tanong noong mga oras na iyon. Mentally stressed ako lately. And it is not good. Really!
My other half and I don’t have any similarities. Magkaiba ng gusto. Magkaiba ng prinsipyo. Do I need to give the details here?! Basta magkaiba kami. Mahirap siyang i-please. Hindi ko alam kung ang gagawin ko ba ay maappreciate niya o hindi. Nahirapan ako.
-Learning, Mga Kwento ni Waltz
My other half and I don’t have any similarities. Magkaiba ng gusto. Magkaiba ng prinsipyo. Do I need to give the details here?! Basta magkaiba kami. Mahirap siyang i-please. Hindi ko alam kung ang gagawin ko ba ay maappreciate niya o hindi. Nahirapan ako.
-Learning, Mga Kwento ni Waltz
Pagbabalik
Pagkatapos ng mahigit na isang taon.......
Uuwi ako sa probinsiya.
Makikita ko na naman si Nanay at ang makulit kong kapatid.
Makakahiga na naman ako sa aking sariling kama.
Mayayakap ko ang mga naiwan kong unan.
Makikita ko ang mga barkada at kaklase sa hayskul.
Masasabi ko: Masarap ang Buhay!
-Nagbabalik, Dan's Moron Me
Uuwi ako sa probinsiya.
Makikita ko na naman si Nanay at ang makulit kong kapatid.
Makakahiga na naman ako sa aking sariling kama.
Mayayakap ko ang mga naiwan kong unan.
Makikita ko ang mga barkada at kaklase sa hayskul.
Masasabi ko: Masarap ang Buhay!
-Nagbabalik, Dan's Moron Me
teh Essence
It came to me that I am driven not by ideas but by emotions. And in the end, I don’t have to envy those people who could write in utter honesty because, I know, I honestly write what I feel.
-When the waltz is over*, Through the Sadness
-When the waltz is over*, Through the Sadness
Push
Not pushing one's self to do more won't do any good, but pushing one's self too far is far more worse. I think it is all about learning the fine line between utter mediocrity and sheer stupidity.
-Sick Elbow, Nox' One midnight Wolf
-Sick Elbow, Nox' One midnight Wolf
oo, Ako!
Ako lang ang may kayang magsabing
isa kang mabuting tao.
Ako lang ang magkakaroon ng lakas ng loob na
ipagtanggol ka kung sakaling may kakalaban sayo.
Ako mismo ang haharap sa kanila.
Dahil kilala kita at alam kong mahina ang loob mo.
Ako mismo ang magtataas ng ulo mong lagi mong niyuyuko
kapag hindi ka naiintindihan ng mundo.
Ako ang magsisigaw ng lahat ng pangarap mo
para malaman nilang hindi lang kapakanan mo ang iniintindi mo.
-Ako, Anne's Adlesirc
isa kang mabuting tao.
Ako lang ang magkakaroon ng lakas ng loob na
ipagtanggol ka kung sakaling may kakalaban sayo.
Ako mismo ang haharap sa kanila.
Dahil kilala kita at alam kong mahina ang loob mo.
Ako mismo ang magtataas ng ulo mong lagi mong niyuyuko
kapag hindi ka naiintindihan ng mundo.
Ako ang magsisigaw ng lahat ng pangarap mo
para malaman nilang hindi lang kapakanan mo ang iniintindi mo.
-Ako, Anne's Adlesirc
Don't Say Goodbye - Human Nature
kainis LSS ako dito for a week now, palaging pinapatugtog sa office kasi. ewan, minsan naiiyak ako pag nagiinternalize at pagintindi ng lyrics ng song na ito, been there, done that. kaya siguro ganito nalang ako kung sobrang emotional pag ganitong mga kanta and again, blame it to the weather..
Haberdey Angelo and Joseph
Haberdey nga pala,
Angelo, we've been friends since grade III palang and now more than 2 decades na friendship natin, walang magbabago hanggang sa tumanda tayo. Salamat sa pagkakaibigan. Alam ginagawa namin ang lahat para sa iyo at sa barkada natin. Sana magkitakita ang tropa natin back from elementary days, that would be one of the greatest and happiest moment that would come in my life. Hope you won't change and andyan naman ang PS Boys para magdamayan.
Joseph, natatawa nalang ako minsan dahil nakikita ko ang sarili ko sa iyo, kaya siguro magkasundo tayo. Hindi ka parin nagbabago. Maski sa amin eh hindi ka nagsasabi ng totoo at marami kang dahilan, lalo na yang pag-aabroad mo. Hope to see you soon again and congrats nga pala!
Angelo, we've been friends since grade III palang and now more than 2 decades na friendship natin, walang magbabago hanggang sa tumanda tayo. Salamat sa pagkakaibigan. Alam ginagawa namin ang lahat para sa iyo at sa barkada natin. Sana magkitakita ang tropa natin back from elementary days, that would be one of the greatest and happiest moment that would come in my life. Hope you won't change and andyan naman ang PS Boys para magdamayan.
Joseph, natatawa nalang ako minsan dahil nakikita ko ang sarili ko sa iyo, kaya siguro magkasundo tayo. Hindi ka parin nagbabago. Maski sa amin eh hindi ka nagsasabi ng totoo at marami kang dahilan, lalo na yang pag-aabroad mo. Hope to see you soon again and congrats nga pala!
E.Y.
thanks Nelson for a wonderful passage from a book about being true to yourself, naliwanagan ako sa five principles na ito, maybe it's about time to re-think and reflect, mga past mistakes, wrong decision and failures in life..
Principle 1: KnowYourself
Knowing ourselves is the first step to being ourselves in an authentic way. It takes courage to really look within and become aware of who we truly are at the deepest level. Our commitment to personal growth, to discovering more of who we are, and to allowing the support, honest feedback, and guidance of others is essential in our ability to know ourselves and thus be authentic.
Principle 2: Transform Your Fear
We all get scared in life, especially when we live, speak, and act in an authentic way. There’s nothing wrong with us for feeling fear; it’s one of the most basic and common human emotions. Our resistance to and denial of our fear are the real problems. When we’re able to admit, own, feel, and express our fear, we have the ability to transform it and utilize its power in a positive way. Taking action in the face of our fear is courageous and empowering. Being able to feel our fear and at the same time not allow it to stop us is essential in our commitment to live with authenticity. Living your authentic life.
Principle 3: Express Yourself
Expressing ourselves fully is one of the most important aspects of being authentic. When we have the courage to speak our truth, deal with conflicts directly, and express our emotions completely, we empower ourselves to be who we really are with others and in life in general. Being vulnerable and real, which on the surface are often seen as “weak,” in actuality are what give us access to authenticity, freedom, and power in our lives, our work, and our relationships.
Principle 4: Be Bold
Being bold is about living, speaking, and acting with courage and authenticity. It takes boldness to be true to ourselves and live an authentic life. Things we can do to be bold in our lives are be true to ourselves, live with passion, step out, lean on others, and when we fall down, get back up. When we remember and practice these important ele- ments of boldness with courage, we’re able to be who we truly are in a bold and authentic way.
Principle 5: Celebrate Who You Are
Celebrating who we are, completely, is the most important element to truly being ourselves. This is not about being arrogant or perfect, or having everything handled in life—it’s about accepting, acknowledging, and owning all of who we are, both our light sides and our dark sides, and choosing to celebrate ourselves. There is and only ever will be one of each of us. It’s our challenge in life to love our- selves in a genuine way if we want to live with a true sense of authenticity, fulfillment, and confidence. Being who we really are is all about celebrating ourselves.
These five principles of authenticity are powerful concepts that, with commitment, awareness, and courage, can be incorporated into your life on a regular basis. Each principle builds on the one before it, leading you through a process that starts with knowing yourself, then looks at confronting and transforming your fear, moves on to expressing yourself fully, continues with you being bold, and concludes with the most essential aspect of all: celebrating and loving who you are.
Principle 1: KnowYourself
Knowing ourselves is the first step to being ourselves in an authentic way. It takes courage to really look within and become aware of who we truly are at the deepest level. Our commitment to personal growth, to discovering more of who we are, and to allowing the support, honest feedback, and guidance of others is essential in our ability to know ourselves and thus be authentic.
Principle 2: Transform Your Fear
We all get scared in life, especially when we live, speak, and act in an authentic way. There’s nothing wrong with us for feeling fear; it’s one of the most basic and common human emotions. Our resistance to and denial of our fear are the real problems. When we’re able to admit, own, feel, and express our fear, we have the ability to transform it and utilize its power in a positive way. Taking action in the face of our fear is courageous and empowering. Being able to feel our fear and at the same time not allow it to stop us is essential in our commitment to live with authenticity. Living your authentic life.
Principle 3: Express Yourself
Expressing ourselves fully is one of the most important aspects of being authentic. When we have the courage to speak our truth, deal with conflicts directly, and express our emotions completely, we empower ourselves to be who we really are with others and in life in general. Being vulnerable and real, which on the surface are often seen as “weak,” in actuality are what give us access to authenticity, freedom, and power in our lives, our work, and our relationships.
Principle 4: Be Bold
Being bold is about living, speaking, and acting with courage and authenticity. It takes boldness to be true to ourselves and live an authentic life. Things we can do to be bold in our lives are be true to ourselves, live with passion, step out, lean on others, and when we fall down, get back up. When we remember and practice these important ele- ments of boldness with courage, we’re able to be who we truly are in a bold and authentic way.
Principle 5: Celebrate Who You Are
Celebrating who we are, completely, is the most important element to truly being ourselves. This is not about being arrogant or perfect, or having everything handled in life—it’s about accepting, acknowledging, and owning all of who we are, both our light sides and our dark sides, and choosing to celebrate ourselves. There is and only ever will be one of each of us. It’s our challenge in life to love our- selves in a genuine way if we want to live with a true sense of authenticity, fulfillment, and confidence. Being who we really are is all about celebrating ourselves.
These five principles of authenticity are powerful concepts that, with commitment, awareness, and courage, can be incorporated into your life on a regular basis. Each principle builds on the one before it, leading you through a process that starts with knowing yourself, then looks at confronting and transforming your fear, moves on to expressing yourself fully, continues with you being bold, and concludes with the most essential aspect of all: celebrating and loving who you are.
Adele - Someone Like You
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best, for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:-
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.
Sa iyo,
Am trying as hard as I can para divert sa ibang activities para lang malimutan ka
Hindi ko alam bakit I'm still holding my feelings to you
Siguro dahil mabait ka at ramdam ko ang concern mo
Pero syempre hindi ko dapat misinterpret iyon at bigyan ng false hope ang sarili ko
Lalo na't malabo na magiging tayo..
I choose to love you in silence, for in silence i found no rejection
Wala akong lakas ng loob para sabihin sa iyo kung gaano kita kamahal
Kung gaano ako ka-excite na bigay ang 100% ng aking pagmamahal
Kaso maraming hadlang para gawin ko iyon kaya
Mas minabuti ko nalang na maging ganito nalang at ikimkim sa sarili
ang nararamdaman ko sa iyo na hindi ko alam kung hanggang kelan ko kakayanin
Hindi ko alam dapat kong gawin para kalimutan ka, please help me..
Am trying my best, sinasabi ko nlang sa sarili ko
kung san tayo magtatagal dun ako, pero hanggang kailan..
Ewan ko, puro walang kasiguruhan itong buhay na ito..
Mahal mo, hindi naman pwede maging kayo..
Sana hindi nalang ganun kakumplikado ang magmahal..
Bagong hamon
Bagong buwan na naman
Pressure months
Kung alam nyo lang ang ibig kong sabihin
Ayoko ng ganito
Parang mas matindi palagi ang kapalit
Parang pinagbabayaran ko ngayon ang choice na pinili ko
Hindi na ako masaya sa ganitong kalakaran
Mahirap magsalita dahil hindi mo na mababawi iyon
Sana malagpasan ko ang kalbaryo ngayong buwan
Kung hindi eh, kelangan tumahak na naman ng bagong landas
Sana hindi nalang ganun ka-kumplikado ang lahat
Wala man lang ako mahawakang susuporta sa akin
Mabuti pa ang iba
Bahala na..
Pressure months
Kung alam nyo lang ang ibig kong sabihin
Ayoko ng ganito
Parang mas matindi palagi ang kapalit
Parang pinagbabayaran ko ngayon ang choice na pinili ko
Hindi na ako masaya sa ganitong kalakaran
Mahirap magsalita dahil hindi mo na mababawi iyon
Sana malagpasan ko ang kalbaryo ngayong buwan
Kung hindi eh, kelangan tumahak na naman ng bagong landas
Sana hindi nalang ganun ka-kumplikado ang lahat
Wala man lang ako mahawakang susuporta sa akin
Mabuti pa ang iba
Bahala na..
on Being Single..
"I've been single for almost a year, and I'm still alive. More importantly, I am content in being single. Yes, I do miss the times when I have someone to cuddle to during the cold, rainy weather. I miss the quiet times of eating with your special someone in a very ordinary place -- however your special someone makes everything out of the ordinary. I am a hopeless romantic and an eternal dreamer, but I have learned that reality isn't all that hard, once I understood how to accept it. I quote myself a few months back: being single is a choice."
-Two Choice, Nox's One Midnight Wolf
-Two Choice, Nox's One Midnight Wolf
Halo-halo
Tambay sa bahay nitong long weekend
Kahit gustong magpunta sa ibang lugar kelangan magipon para sa nalalapit na byahe
Nakapag jogging naman nung Linggo pero sandali lang din, buti nalang andyan si crush
Kulang sa tulog nitong weekend at kelangan bumawi nitong Linggo ng gabi
Hindi natuloy ang jogging to San Isidro dahil dun sa pagbawi ng tulog
Niyaya si Angelo sa foodtrip sa Town Center pero sandali lang din kami
Sa Japan Home Center, may nakitang temperature at hygrometer pero barometer ang gusto ko
Bumili ng Lord of the Rings trilogy books at a bargain price of 50 pesos each
Nasa Book 2 na nga pala ako nun at maghahanap rin ng Sword of Truth series
Nami-miss ko nang mag World of Warcraft
Nami-miss ko na rin si special someone, hope the feeling is mutual
Ang hirap mag backread pag weekend surfer ka
Parang ayoko na muna pumasok nitong first week dahil pressure ang month na ito sa akin
Malapit na ang December, wala paring lovelife, choosy kasi potah!
Mamayang hapon me meeting ang PS Boys para sa susunod na cosplay event
Sana matuloy na rin next month ang reunion ng PS Boys sa Avilon Zoo
Kahit gustong magpunta sa ibang lugar kelangan magipon para sa nalalapit na byahe
Nakapag jogging naman nung Linggo pero sandali lang din, buti nalang andyan si crush
Kulang sa tulog nitong weekend at kelangan bumawi nitong Linggo ng gabi
Hindi natuloy ang jogging to San Isidro dahil dun sa pagbawi ng tulog
Niyaya si Angelo sa foodtrip sa Town Center pero sandali lang din kami
Sa Japan Home Center, may nakitang temperature at hygrometer pero barometer ang gusto ko
Bumili ng Lord of the Rings trilogy books at a bargain price of 50 pesos each
Nasa Book 2 na nga pala ako nun at maghahanap rin ng Sword of Truth series
Nami-miss ko nang mag World of Warcraft
Nami-miss ko na rin si special someone, hope the feeling is mutual
Ang hirap mag backread pag weekend surfer ka
Parang ayoko na muna pumasok nitong first week dahil pressure ang month na ito sa akin
Malapit na ang December, wala paring lovelife, choosy kasi potah!
Mamayang hapon me meeting ang PS Boys para sa susunod na cosplay event
Sana matuloy na rin next month ang reunion ng PS Boys sa Avilon Zoo
Aktibidad
Daming nangyari nitong nakaraang mga linggo..
Hindi man naging Champ sa Gaga/Bieber showdown, happy parin ang team
Maski sa Scarecrow contest ng Pod, pero salamat na rin sa effort
Plans this long weekend? Wala kasi may pasok eh
Next next week, planong umakyat ulit
December nagiisip pa rin ng plano kung anung gagawin sa buong linggo na iyon
Kay UAR
Ma-pride ka masyado, hindi ko inaasahan na gagawin mo sa akin iyon, pero mabuti na rin at umabot sa ganun na parang bumalik sa dati na hindi nagpapansinan, Ok na siguro ito kesa mag-clash tayo
Kay RIO
Tagal na rin nating hindi nagkikita, parang dekada na ang mga buwan na iyon, miss na kita. Hehe! Hope to see you soon. Alam ko masyado kang busy palagi.. Kung alam mo lang..
Kay EOI/LI
Pagaling ka, get well soon. Miss you both. Its been centuries na rin since nagkita tayo.
Hindi man naging Champ sa Gaga/Bieber showdown, happy parin ang team
Maski sa Scarecrow contest ng Pod, pero salamat na rin sa effort
Plans this long weekend? Wala kasi may pasok eh
Next next week, planong umakyat ulit
December nagiisip pa rin ng plano kung anung gagawin sa buong linggo na iyon
Kay UAR
Ma-pride ka masyado, hindi ko inaasahan na gagawin mo sa akin iyon, pero mabuti na rin at umabot sa ganun na parang bumalik sa dati na hindi nagpapansinan, Ok na siguro ito kesa mag-clash tayo
Kay RIO
Tagal na rin nating hindi nagkikita, parang dekada na ang mga buwan na iyon, miss na kita. Hehe! Hope to see you soon. Alam ko masyado kang busy palagi.. Kung alam mo lang..
Kay EOI/LI
Pagaling ka, get well soon. Miss you both. Its been centuries na rin since nagkita tayo.
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