Quarter Life crisis again

2 years ago na post ko na itong blog entry na ito and again kahit medyo hindi ko pinapansin, right now i'm still suffering from this "Quarter Life Crisis", hindi ko lang siya iniisip pero kusa mo nalang nararamdaman ang symptoms minsan na up to the point na super nostalgic at stressed out ka na na hindi mo na alam ang gagawin ko..

another entry describing this crisis..

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

-author unknown

8 Reaction(s) :: Quarter Life crisis again

  1. off topic:

    bukas ko na babasahin.. uwian na,

    "right" lobster? what do you mean?

  2. the right lobster who could make you happy. thanks again Dabo for the visit everyday.

  3. ayan nabasa ko,

    ambilis namna yata ng quarter life crisis mo, quarter plus quarter, ...grabe nasa mid life crisis ka na..hehe..joke lang cheer up!

    pag-uwi mo ngayon, subukan mong matulog sa sahig ng walang kumot at unan, then tell me tomorrow how it feels.. then read your blog again..

  4. Ako medyo natakot nung nag-20 ako. Wala na kasing "teen" sa edad eh, pero wala naman palang masyadong difference kasi pwede mo namang sabihing "twenteen". Haha :p

  5. grabe, magkasingedad lang tayo, pero parang feeling ko ambigat ng problema mo...

    feeling ko di quarter life crisis pinagdadaanan mo... lonely ka lang.

    until you realize na masaya ang buhay, lalo ka lang madedepress. You need to hang out with your friends more...

    sensya nakealam nanaman.

  6. @dabo
    honga eh midlife na nga ako kahit quarter lang age ko pero sa itsura ko mukha na akong midlife. ok lang iyon. hindi rin naman ako sa kama natutulog at sa sofa lang namin at minsan walang unan. kelangan ko lang ng makakasama sa pagtulog

    honga eh mukhang it's all in the mind thing na naman itong nararamdaman ko.

    hindi ko alam eh. siguro magkahalo na siya. siguro nga lonely pero maraming factors pa rin. gusto ko nga sana lagi kang makialam. hehe!

  7. Hi! na inspired ako sa blog mo,dahil siguro sa mga time na ito dumadaan ako sa ganitong proseso,

  8. @derek

    salamat naman po at kahit papano nakapag share ako ng experience sa ibang tao.