SALUBONG SA 2009

Isang Manigong Bagong Taon sa lahat! Bagong Taon, buhay, simula at pag-asa!

Salamat nga pala sa mga taong dumaan sa aking buhay. Nagbigay sa akin ng inspirasyon para magpatuloy sa buhay. Mga nagpatawa at nagpalungkot sa akin. Sa mga naging ex ko at magiging palang. Sa mga kaibigan at kaklase. Sa magulang ko at mga kapatid. Sa mga taong nagturo sa akin ng mga mahahalagang leksyon sa buhay. Dumaan na naman ang taon na puno ng pakikibaka at pakikipagsapalaran sa buhay. Sana pagdating ng bagong taon patuloy niyo pa rin akong gabayan at samahan sa pagtahak natin sa landas ng walang kasiguruhan.

Supervisor's Christmas Message

Hi GUYS!!!

Merry Christmas to everyone. This year has been so fun and fullfilling thanks to each and every one of you..

Angie, laughter is always the best medicine... At ikaw ang botika ng bayan. I appreciate your sense of cheer and warmth. I hope you always stay like that.

Ms Bitun, you're such a dear lady. Competitive, effective, fun and sweet at the same time. I love what you bring to the table.

Tess, you've got a big heart in a small package. You're such a positive presence and I like having you around, foxy lady.

Peng, I love how opinionated you are, and I admire your thought process. You are also very thoughtful of me and your peers. One of the most unique and wonderful people I've known.

Ricky my homie, your initiative is something I'm definitely proud of. Ever-smiling and an overall nice guy. Cheers!

Diane, my princessity. You are indeed very charming. A burst of sunshine all the time.

Khris, I dunno if I've mentioned that I love how you're a real lady with a great sense of humor. You never fail to crack me up. You will definitely make a good wife someday =D

Jeff my boy! You're my intriguing guy. I appreciate so much the things that you do to help the team out. You're very smart and you've got a fascinating personality.

Vivz, my sweet lady. You're such a darling. I'm happy to have someone as nice as you are in my team. And you've got one of the best naturally wavy hair ever, hehe.

Lenelyn, you're such a warm person. Very endearing, and the team will never be what it is without you. You are promising, and I cannot wait to see what's in store for you.

Grazzie, how can the day go by without having you around? You're fun-loving and an efficient colleague at the same time. Your friendliness will make you go places.

Oliver buddy boy, you are one really talented person. A mix of creativity, resourcefulness, critical thinking and charm. I'm glad you're showing us this wonderful side of you.

Annabelle, without question, your integrity is absolutely admirable. Your thirst for knowledge plus overall nice persona will definitely go a long way. Way to go!

Sherrydante, I'm not sure when you'd get to read this. But you're such a bright light through anything. I've never seen you being negative at all. That means people just like having you around.

Joydee, you're a darling. Your resilience and determination to overcome obstacles is inspiring. I hope only the best things for you.

Jona, my sweet artist. God has been very generous with his graces upon you--giving you wonderful talents and an equally wonderful personality.

And a happy new year to all of you! I love you guys, and I appreciate everyone being so nice and all. I wish you all the best. God Bless =D

Horror Flicks before teh New Year

Sensya na at hindi nakakapag-update sa blog, kasi na trauma ako sa mga napapanod ko ngayon lalo na sa movie series na ito. Both bloody and psychological horror binigay nito sa akin. Nabitin lang ako kasi up to Saw 4 lang nasa DVD namin kaya maghahanap pa ako ng part 5 niya.

Tapos kahapon pa, nagpunta kami sa haus ng ka-berks ko. Pinalaro pa sa akin ang latest Silent Hill na game sa PS3, grabe sobrang real-time siya as in gumagalaw lahat ng gamit pag nababangga mo. Added feature pa ang battle system na parang Resident Evil siya. Ayoko na siya laruin kasi mas nakakatakot pa ang sorroundings/ background music kesa sa mga mobs mismo. Hehe!

Highest page view so far

October 17, 2008 got the highest page view since the inception of this blog to the blogosphere. 94 hits and i dunno what part ng blog entries ang binabasa nila, nevertheless - salamat po sa patuloy na pagtangkilik sa aking blog at sa mga namamadali ng daan thru google/yahoo keyword search. Kahit hindi gaano kilala, may nagpupunta pa rin. Proud to say na ads free ang blog na ito at patuloy sa pagiging personal at walang motibong kumita.

Clip: Gun Lae Gun - OST The Love of Siam

*sigh* after seeing the trailer of "The Love of Siam" - although last year pa sya na release na in-love agad ako sa movie na ito. It is so real and honest. Walang exaggeration. Simple and pure kaya marami siguro ang nakaka-relate sa movie na ito. Another great Thai movie (aside from Shutter) to watch. Thanks Quachee and EthaiMusic for the lyrics and translation of the OST of the movie. This song is dedicated sa mga kagaya ng situation nina Mew and Tong out there..

Song: You & Me / Gun Lae Gun
Album: OST Love of Siam
Singer: Q Flure
Lyrics & translation from Ethaimusic


ถ้าบอกว่าเพลงนี้แต่งให้เธอ เธอจะเชื่อไหม
taa bok waa pleng nee dtaeng hai ter ter ja cheua mai
If I said that this song is made for you, would you believe it?

มันอาจไม่เพราะไม่ซึ้งไม่สวยงามเหมือนเพลงทั่วไป
man aat mai pror mai seung mai suay ngaam meuan pleng tua bpai
It's probably not melodious, not affectionate, not beautiful like other songs.

อยากให้รู้ว่าเพลงรัก ถ้าไม่รักก็เขียนไม่ได้
yaak hai roo waa pleng rak taa mai rak gor kian mai daai
I want you to know that if there's no love, you can't write a love song.

แต่กับเธอคนดีรู้ไหม ฉันเขียนอย่างง่าย...ดาย
dtae gap ter kon dee roo mai chan kian yaang ngaai ... daai
But for you, my dear, do you know? I wrote it easily.

เธอคงเคยได้ยินเพลงรักมานับร้อยพัน
ter kong koie dai-yin pleng rak maa nap roi pan
You've probably heard hundreds and thousands of love songs

มันอาจจะโดนใจ
man aat ja dohn jai
that's probably impressive

แต่ก็มีความหมายเหมือนๆกันแต่ถ้าเธอฟังเพลงนี้
dtae gor mee kwaam maai meuan-meuan gan dtae taa ter fang pleng nee
but with a similar meaning altogether, but if you listen to this song,

เพลงที่เขียนเพื่อเธอเท่านั้น
pleng tee kian peua ter tao nan
a song that's written simply for you.

เพื่อเธอเข้าใจความหมายแล้วใจจะได้มีกันและกัน
peua ter kao jai kwaam maai laew jai ja daai mee gan lae gan
For you to understand the meaning of it, our hearts will then have a connection.

ให้มันเป็นเพลงบนทางเดินเคียง ที่จะมีเพียงเสียงเธอกับฉัน
hai man bpen pleng bon taang dern kiang tee ja mee piang siang ter gap chan
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.

อยู่ด้วยกันตราบนานๆ
yoo duay gan dtraap naan-naan
Together as long as possible.

ดั่งในใจความบอกในกวีว่าตราบใดที่มีรักย่อมมีหวัง
dang nai jai kwaam bok nai ga-wee waa dtraap dai tee mee rak yom mee wang
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there's love naturally there's hope.

คือทุกครั้งที่รักของเธอส่องใจ ฉันมีปลายทาง
keu took krang tee rak kong ter song jai chan mee bplaai taang
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.


มีความจริงอยู่ในความรักตั้งมากมาย
mee kwaam jing yoo nai kwaam rak dtang maak maai
There is a lot of facts found in love,

และที่ผ่านมาฉันใช้เวลาเพื่อหาความหมาย
lae tee paan maa chan chai way-laa peua haa kwaam maai
and in the past I used the time for the sake of finding the meaning.

แต่ไม่นานก็เพิ่งรู้ เมื่อทุกครั้งที่มีเธอใกล้
dtae mai naan gor perng roo meua took krang tee mee ter glai
But soon, I'd just know it, whenever you are near me,

ว่าถ้าชีวิตคือทำนอง เธอก็เป็นดังคำร้องที่เพราะและซึ้งจับใจ
waa taa chee-wit keu tam nong ter gor bpen dang kam rong tee pror lae seung jap jai
That if life's a rhythm, you are as good as the words that is melodious and touching to the heart.

ให้มันเป็นเพลงบนทางเดินเคียง ที่จะมีเพียงเสียงเธอกับฉัน
hai man bpen pleng bon taang dern kiang tee ja mee piang siang ter gap chan
Let it be a song on our pathways that consist only voices of you and me.

อยู่ด้วยกันตราบนานๆ
yoo duay gan dtraap naan-naan
Together as long as possible.

ดั่งในใจความบอกในกวีว่าตราบใดที่มีรักย่อมมีหวัง
dang nai jai kwaam bok nai ga-wee waa dtraap dai tee mee rak yom mee wang
As the meaning is told in a poetry that as long as there's love naturally there's hope.

คือทุกครั้งที่รักของเธอส่องใจ ฉันมีปลายทาง
keu took krang tee rak kong ter song jai chan mee bplaai taang
Means whenever your love shines through the heart, I have a goal.

มีทางเดินให้เราเดินเคียง และมีเสียงของเธอกับฉัน
mee taang dern hai rao dern kiang lae mee siang kong ter gap chan
There's a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.

มีทางเดินให้เราเดินร่วมเคียง และมีเสียงของเธอกับฉัน
mee taang dern hai rao dern ruam kiang lae mee siang kong ter gap chan
There's a pathway for us to walk side by side and there are voices of you and me.

Sigh

after a heartache,
what we do is cry,
breakdown & act
as if it's the end of
our life

the condition that
goes with us is to
never love again,
to resist hurt..

we let time fly by,
believing that it
can heal our
wounds..

that's what we
think.

but the truth
behind this that
people can't see is
that

TIME CAN'T HEAL
HEARTACHES, BUT
A NEW LOVE
WILL DO

it's just the reason
that new love will
outreign the past
love you are trying
to erase.

walang palabok na salita, nakakasilaw na graphics etc, plain and simple

Merry Christmas.. to all fellow bloggers out there!!

Clip: Only You - Gregorian

one of my Gregorian faves..

Only You
Gregorian: Masters of Chant

Looking from a window above, it is like a story of love
Can you hear me?
Came back only yesterday, I'm moving farther away
Want you near me

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

Sometimes when I think of her name when it's only a game
And I need you
Listen to the words that you say it's getting harder to stay
When I see you

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

This is going to take a long time and I wonder what's mine
Can't take no more
Wonder if you'll understand it's just the touch of your hand
Behind a closed door

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you

Reunion aftermath

December 2008

December 2007

December 2006
December 2005 reunion

Masaya lang ako sa mga nangyari kagabi dahil nagkita-kita ulit kaming magkakaklase nung kolehiyo pa ako. Biglang nanariwa ang mga alaala nung mga panahong andun pa kami sa eskwelahan. Ang SM na naging recess area namin. Ang mezzanine na tambayan namin pag nag-aantay ng shift. Tawanan. Kwentuhan. Lokohan. Sayang nga lang at hindi nakapunta ang 2 sa mga kolokoy sa grupo namin dahil pareho silang may pananagutan sa relihiyong kanilang kinaaniban. Sana sa susunod na taon (sa buwan ng Abril) makasama sila sa Summer get together naman ni Cha-cha (classmate namin mula Dubai).

Kahapon mga 1.30pm na ako nakarating sa SM. As usual and expected ako ang maaga kahit ang usapan eh 1pm (pinoy nga naman), then si Arnold nakita ko na lang na umaaligid, then si Nerissa dumating mga 1.55pm, si Lester mga 2pm, Angelo at 2.10pm, habang sina Charlene, Raniel at asawa niya mga 2.30pm na nakarating. Si Dhez nangako na sasama pero hindi man lang nag-text. Umaasa pa naman ako na darating siya dahil bukod sa mga kolokoy eh siya ang muse ng grupo. Mga 2.45pm na kami nakaalis dahil bumili pa ako ng pang exchange gift kasama si Lester sa may National. Wala kasi akong dala that time bukod sa digicam na low-batt naman kaasar talaga.

Medyo makulimlim at nagbabadya ang ulan pero tumuloy pa rin kami. Buti na lang at may dalang car sina Raniel at Arnold kaya mabilis kaming nakapunta kina Tere na nag-aantay na sa amin sa bahay nila sa may Novaliches (na malapit na sa Valenzuela - ang layo). Ayun naghanda na kami at nag-ihaw ng isda, mga kakanin at iba pang ulam. Nakakahiya nga at ako lang hindi nakapagdala sa amin ng desert, ang mahal kasi ng prutas dun malapit sa kanila. Hayaan mo na may saging naman kina Tere. Nakakainis nga dahil akala ko talaga puno pa ang battery nung sa digicam pero paggamit ko na eh naging 1 bar na lang at nagbabadya na empty batt na siya. Kaya kay Nerissa na lang ginamit namin most of the time. Buti naman at uupload niya iyon within this week.

Mga update sa kanila..

Nerissa, Teresa - as usual wala pa ring bago sa kanila. Dun pa rin sa dating work sila doing the same thing. Ewan ko kung may lovelife mga iyon kasi ayaw naman nila pagusapan. Halos pare-pareho lang kaming breadwinner sa family namin.

Arnold - what's new kay Bro, ayun kagaya ko pareho na kaming mukhang cancer patient - wala lang manipis na lalo ang hair niya compared sa akin. Kaya nga nagpa-picture kami na magkatabi eh. Brothers in distress.

Angelo/Charlene - June na ang kasal nila, walang nagbago - pang-asar pa rin sa Charlene while in contrast naman si Angelo, hindi natanong kung buntis na ba kaya magpapakasal. Hehe. Balak ni Angelo magbukas ng computer shop syempre todo support ako dun dahil matagal na niyang plano iyon along with my berks.

Raniel - hindi ko alam name ng asawa niya, sorry talaga. Pero Ok naman ang wife niya at nakikipag-biruan pa sa amin. July na ang kasal nila - paano ba ito ninong ako sa 2 kasal nga mga ito. This is my first time. Hindi ko nga alam kung anu ireregalo sa kanila. Buntis na asawa ni Raniel at sa March na manganganak. Oi Raniel - ung cellphone ah reserve na sa akin. Next month ko bibilhin iyan.

Lester - ang big surprise this reunion. Madaming nagulat at nagbago sa kanya ngayon. Isa na ako dun. Dati kasi bad boy effect siya sa school. Ngayon super bait na siya at akala mo seminarista. Nagulat nga ako at hindi pala siya umiinom kagaya ko. Pero wala sa itsura niya kasi eh. Mas gwapo na siya sa akin. Amp! Nakakahiya lumapit sa kanya. Pero nakakalungkot din kasi mga ilang taon na lang eh aalis na rin siya to migrate sa US kasama ng kanyang family dun. Kaya nga sinusulit na namin ang natitirang taon niya dito kaya asahan na gigimik kahit strolling pa. Makasama lang namin siya.

Mga 8pm na kami nakauwi. Salamat nga pala bro Arnold sa paghatid sa amin sa sakayan. Kahit ganyan ka, mahal ka namin dahil isa ka sa mga component ng grupo. Salamat rin sa mga dumating at nagbigay ng kanilang panahon, oras at pagod para maidaos ang isa na namang reunion na isa sa pinakamalahagang event ng aking buhay. Kita-kits nalang po sa April para sa summer get together. Amen.

Reunion mamaya

Kahapon Cabal Online for 10 hours, puro mga LID (Lake in the Dusk) quest kaya nakakaantok nung tumagal. Wala lang kung bakit kasi 20x mong papatayin ang kalaban na iyon at 20 map parts din gagamitin mo, plus 5 quest lang ang pwede ipasok eh andami pa kayang tambak na quest bale lumalabas baka mga 60 map parts ang magastos ko bago matapos ang LID quest. Hayz kabisado ko na nga ang lugar at ang completion time na lang ang kinukumpara ko (mga 30mins more or less). Sana matapos na ito para wala na akong isipin kundi ang Ruina station.

Mga alas-2 na ako nakatulog dahil pinanood ko pa kagabi nang kaunti ang "Saw series" sabi ng kapatid ko magkakarugtong daw iyon kaya wala akong pwedeng skip kundi magsimula sa unang saw. Hmm. Medyo Ok naman na parang mala-CSI/suspense ang theme ng palabas. Akala ko kasi na parang typical na American bloody and gore ang film, iyon pala eh may sense naman pala. Bigla ko tuloy naalala ang Scary Movie 4 kung saan na feature ang movie na iyon sa spoof nila. Nagtataka lang ako bakit kaya wala sina Fred Krueger at Jason sa mga sequels nila. Tinapos ko rin ang unang Nightmare on Elm street, wala lang. Natatangahan lang ako kay Krueger kasi alam mo na. Basta ganun. Habang inaantay sa pag-upload ang mga natitirang year-end pics sa GlamRock party ng Chase, binisita ko ang mahigit 60+ na blog links ko at binati sila ng Advance Merry Christmas. Nakakapagod pala pag binisita mo ang lahat, kulang ang isang oras sa pagtingin palang ng mga blog nila.

Kagabi usap kami ni JS, iyon nga lang paputol-putol siya pero umabot ng mga 3 hours ang usapan. Buti nga at walang tao sa taas kaya nakapag-usap kami sa phone nang tuloy-tuloy. Halo-halo lang pinag-usapan. Naputol lang ang usapan namin nung na lowbat na ang wireless phone. Mamaya na ang college reunion ng batch namin sa AMA-Fairview. Kaso hindi kami ganun karami dahil ang iba eh nasa ibang bansa na or may mas importanteng gagawin pero Ok lang. Annual na kasi itong ginagawa namin for 4 years na. Wala lang - kain lang, usap, exchange gift, videoke pag meron. Then uwi na. Ganun lang - wala nang iba pang abubot. Mahala magkita once a year para pagusapn kung anu na ang balita sa buhay. Next year na lang ang reunion ng mga Oso dahil medyo alanganin at nasa probinsya ang iba.

Friday na

TGIF nga naman. It has been a long and exhausting week for me. Daming ginagawa masyado. Nababaliw na ako sa mga pwede mangyari sa pagtatapos ng taon. Can't wait for our college reunion this Sunday. Kaso hindi ko alam kung makakapunta ba ang lahat. Sila lang kasi ang maasahan kong one of the few good friends unlike here at the office - where i'll have to wear a mask para masakyan lang ang kanilang mga timpla. JS alam ko me sakit ka ngayon - take care over there. Palagi mong binisita ang aking blog. Hmm. Hindi ka naman nagrereply. Gumawa ka na rin ng blog kasi. Hehe! Yung mga pics nga pala hindi ko na-upload lahat dahil anung oras na at maaga pa ang pasok ko. Geh iyon lang muna. Oi Dan mag-reply ka sa text message ko. Kelangan mong mag-kwento sa akin.

P.S.
Ang bilis talaga ng reply mo JS sa chikka. Alam mo naman ang reason kung bakit ganun. Kaya wag ka na magtampo sa akin. Alam mo naman na public ang blog na ito an ikaw dapat ang unang makaintindi niyan.

Wari

Anung oras na at andito pa rin ako sa shop, hindi ko alam kung ma-upload ko ba ang sandamukal na mga pics mula sa year-end party namin. Sinasabay ko na lang sa pagsilip ng mga friendster ng aking friends. Basta me iniisip akong mga bagay-bagay. Kung pwede ko lang ibalik ang panahon. Kung maaga ko lang nakilala siya (sila). Eh di sana masaya ako ngayon at wala nang hahanapin pa. Wag nyo na usisain. Sa akin na lang po iyon. Ah basta, hindi mo maintindihan ang sarili ko.

Bakit ganun.

Bakit ganito.

Bakit po.

Bakit po.

Bakit ganito nangyayari.

Pagod na po ako.

Ayoko na.

Sawa na ako.

May magbabago ba?

Ano bang gusto ko?

Ano ba ang silbi ko?

Tangina, ewan.

Masaya ang buhay Border

Sa umaga pa lang paggising mo. Wala kang maabutang nakahanda man lang na pagkain. Magtitimpla lang ng kape, maliligo, magbibihis then aalis na ng bahay. Ilang oras na biyahe papauwi. Pagdating mo sa bahay - wala ka ring madadatnan na nakahain na pagkain. Sasabihin sa iyo maghain ka na lang diyan at magbukas ng de-lata. Tapos sa tindahan pag kukuha ka ng pagkain dun o inumin -magbabayad ka pa kahit sa iyo naman galing ang pinangbili. Pag oras na ng "renta" mo sa bahay - umagang-umaga palang eh gigisingin ka na ng mga "paglalambing" nila na - bayad sa tubig, kuryente at iba pang mga gastos sa bahay. Ganyan ang aking buhay dorm sa aming sariling bahay. Saya noh!

Challenge

Matatapos na ang 2-week cleanup project namin sa system, then parating na naman ang bagong challenge - 1) Exceptions queue and 2) Null project. Kung kelan matatapos na ang taon saka pa nagdaratingan ang mga ganito. Hmp!

He Says

"When you start finding flaws with your partner -- it's because you dont love him anymore.. for if you love your partner -- you find his/her every flaw -- beauty that is making your relationship worth-keeping and worth-saving.. and from your words -- it seems that your BF bcome the antagonist na noon ay bida sa kwento mo.. then why choose to stay into something na alam mong ala ka ng makitang maganda? when you all have the option to go out and find what really would make you happy.. kasi the more you stay with the things that are making you unhappy, the longer you are depriving yourself of being in the state of "should-be-happy-life".
-posted by Buknoy, Mukamo Forumer

Kami na

Saturday. December 13 Akala ko late na kaming makakapunta sa year-end party, kasi ba naman anung oras na ako nakarating kina Garry (sabay kasi kami pupunta). Dahil sa traffic at hindi ko na-estimate ang oras. Nag-taxi na lang kami para mapabilis kami. Mga 8pm andun na kami. Marami na ring tao. Since glam rock ang theme expect na maraming naka-itim. Ayun kain, pa-picture sa tabi-tabi. Hindi naman ako umiinom kaya hinayaan ko nlang sila. Hmp. Hindi naman ako nanalo kahit isa man lang sa raffle. Malas talaga ako pagdating diyan. Dapat sana hindi na lang ako nagpunta. Gumastos pa ako. Hehe!

Sunday. December 14 Naglaro lang nung umaga, amp ang shop na malapit sa amin laging nag-exit ang client ng Cabal. Hindi na talaga ako maglalaro dun. Umuwi nang tanghali. Medyo naka-idlip. 3pm na ako nagising. Nagmamadali kasi magkikita kami ni JS (considered as a date). Traffic pag hapon kaya medyo natagalan ako. Nakakahiya sa kanya kasi kaninang 4pm pa pala siya eh almost 5pm na ako nakapunta. Natatawa lang ako kasi hawig niya ang high school classmate ko pag naka-sideview. Since madaming tao sa SM lumipat na kami sa Robinsons. Medyo matao din kaso sa bandang ibaba lang. Kumain sandali sa fastfood. Then watch na movie yung "Quarantine".

Nagtataka nga kami bakit kami lang ang tao sa sinehan. Hehe! Umandar na naman pilyo kong utak, hmm.. walang tao - pero nakakatakot din kasi baka may pumasok. Ayun.. kaunting alam mo na. Indie ang film ang galaw pa ng camera, pero tension building din kaya nakaka-excite panoorin. Lalo tuloy akong napapayakap sa kanya at hawak sa kamay dahil sa suspense. Hehe! 8pm na natapos ang palabas. Dumaan lang sa Department store para tumingin ng eyeglass, then electric shaver. Wala lang trip lang.

Then bago umuwi nagtanungan kami "Ano na.. Tayo na ba?" then we both answered "Yes" and so it's official. "In a relationship" na si Jinji. ^^; Natatakot lang ako kasi na baka hindi ko mabigay sa kanya ang binibigay niyang attention and caring sa akin. Hindi ko alam pero were testing the waters right now. I hope ma-clear na ang mga doubts sa aking isip pagdaan ng mga araw.

Teh Moment

Kahapon half-day lang ako para bumili ng mga abubot para sa aming Christmas Party - kung bakit pa kasi may "glam rock" theme. Lol. Mukha ba akong rakista. Kung bakit kasi may ganun pang kaartehan. Mas ok pa kahit formal na lang ang theme. Ang hirap kaya maghanap ng ganun. Wala rin akong pwedeng makausap o konsultahin sa pananamit ng mga ganun. Akalain mo din na nagkita kami ng best friend kong si Angelo sa mall nang hindi sinasadya, kaya ayun sa kanya ako humingi ng payo sa kung anung mga kakailangan kong susuotin. Mga 8pm na kami nakauwi dahil nag bus pa kami amp! Ilang taon na rin akong hindi nakakasakay dun kaya Ok lang kahit medyo abutin ng traffic. Saka me palabas naman sa bus kaya makakapag pahinga kahit papano.

Mamayang gabi na ang big night. Sana manalo sa raffle (sa totoo lang iyon lang habol ko, sayang naman kasi), pero huwag sana aabot ng alanganing oras para makauwi ako nang maaga. Hindi kasi ako sanay na nakikitulog sa ibang bahay. Parang nakakahiya. 2 days na kami nagkakausap ni JS. Can't to wait na magkita kami this Sunday. Like what you've said kaunti na lang ang kagaya natin and we should be together just like we wanted. I still having doubts kung magiging tayo pero hopefully mapapawi iyon bago matapos ang araw na iyon.

He Says

The last four years I spent with you, I have been happy. Most of it. I thought I can spend the rest of my life with you. To grow old. Together. But now that we’re living our separate ways, I guess we’ll simply grow old. Apart.

You, of all people, know that I’m not tough. You knew where to strike to deliver a fatal blow. When you came back, you hit it right on the spot. I found myself vulnerable again.

I don’t know if I should be comforted with the thought that as long as he stays overseas, I’ll have you. But do I really have you? Do you still want to have me? I used to know the answer had you asked me that question. If I’d answer that, would things change? I know I deserve better than these. But “these” are what you are. To love means to love you despite these things.

I'm learning how not to love you.

I'm getting there...

-Slip-up, Wandering Tsinelas

Payong

Natatawa na lang ako sa mga guys na mas gugustuhin pang magpaka-basa sa ulan kaysa magdala ng payong. Ano bang masama sa pagdadala ng payong? Hindi naman nakakabawas sa pagiging lalaki ang magdala nun at may enough reason naman for that. Bakit kung magkakasakit ba kayo matutulungan ba kayo ng mga iyan? Hindi diba.

Risk breaker

This is the third time for this year that I will be taking a risk. I'm seeing someone again. I won't tell any details right now. Wait and see mode.